Abused, Raped, & Beaten: a cutters story

Ch 3: Again?

I was already scared of Tyler and wouldn't go near him without someone., but then I was betrayed. My brother in law, paul, put on a plastic thimg and entered me while i was searchimg for something in his room. Paul never did it again but i was still scared. Then my brother did it. My brother was babysitting me at home while everyone was gone. I was on the lower bunk of our bunk beds. I was only half conscious. My brother climbed down from the bunk bed naked with a plastic thing on his thing similar to what Tyler had. I got scared and was immobilized. My brother climbed into my bed and was thrusting in me. I was really scared. In the middle of what he was doing my mom came home with my sister. My mom hit my brother with a cable and when she saw I was naked too She hit me harder with the cable. I forgot about the accident until my brother did it again in our car. Later on in my life we left my dads house and moved into a trailer. My brother did things to me there twice while he was babysitting me again. I could never trust anyone again. My mom treated me horribly. She called me bad names and she drank a lot. She hit me and slapped me and pulled me hair. The only time she was nice was when she was drunk. I hated her with all my heart. I was sick of being punished and not shown any love. That's when I  met Elder Simon. (Read why me? And you'll understand more.) Elder Simon was perfect. I loved him from the start and I always had a feeling I knew him from long ago and that he was safe.....