I'm Trying - Larry Stylinson Fanfiction

Chapter 11 - Closely Attached

Louis inhaled deeply . His arms and particularly his legs were stinging alot now.He'd sort of hidden his leg away from Harry out of embarrasment.He wanted Harry to see them and comfort him but he felt a bit too vulnerable to just seek attention today.

He exhaled and shuffled into Harry wincing slightly.Harry obviously noticed and sympathetically smiled ,before getting another glimpse of Louis' leg and shaking his head softly.

"Do you want some cream for your leg?" He whispered softly.

Alot of the time Louis would leave the cuts to just dry or maybe just wipe them with a tissue , but they were really stinging. He wasn't sure why it hurt this much but it might of had something to do with the fact that Harry was there and it felt more real.

He nodded and Harry stretched and got up.Louis clung onto his hand though , hesitant to let it go.Harry glanced down and cocked his head softly.Louis smiled sadly. He couldn't explain the amount of comfot that he got whenever Harry was around.

"I'll be right back Lou" Harry said softly , rubbing his thumb over Louis' before Louis nodded.

He came straight back as promised , with a tub of cream.Louis watched carefully as he undid the lid and scooped some of it up into his hand.He motioned for Louis to come closer , so Louis shuffled over to him.Harry glanced down at Louis' leg.It wasn't bleeding anymore but there were numerous , harsh red lines scattered along. He carefully applied the first bit of cream and Louis smiled softly.It was really cold so it soothed his skin. Harry would stop every time Louis winced to make sure he was ok then he would continue rubbing soft , small circles into his skin until he'd applied the cream to the majority of his cuts. After , Harry placed the lid back ontop of the cream and washed his hands , before sliding under the duvet that he'd brought down and engulfing Louis into a hug. Louis was sleepy now. He was sleepy and upset a little but he felt whole again.

"Thank you" he said softly.

Harry rubbed his arm softly and planted a small kiss on Louis head.

Harry hesitated slightly and took a small breath. He didn't ask Louis what had happened when he picked him up because it would be a bit pointless since he was crying so much.He linked his fingers with Louis' and gently rubbed his thumb over his hand.

"What happened Lou?" he asked softly.

Louis stayed silent and sniffled.

He was mindlessly tracing his finger over one of Harry's tattoos as a distraction.But he knew he would have to at least make an attempt to explain.

"I don't really know , i just-" he sighed shakily.

Harry cocked his head slightly , waiting patiently.He hated when Louis was so distraught but he knew that it was better for him to talk about it.

"I was feeling bad this week , i wasn't really sick i just didn't want to worry you" he rambled.

"It's alright Lou "Harry whispered ,rubbing his hand.

"I just cut alot and then i felt guilty about lying to you and Liam when he came to check on me and i just got really bad , i'm so sorry" he sobbed.

Harry shushed him and engulfed Louis into a hug , making sure he was comfortably secure in his arms.

"I just , i -" he sighed.

"i don't even know" he whispered.

Harry cocked his head slightly.

"What so you mean?" he asked.

Louis shuffled a little , leaning in closer.

"I don't know why i get like this. I just get so bad for nothing and i just want to b.. i want to be happy" he said letting out another sob at the end.