Into the Wood

Spent Shell Casing

A single spent shell casing rolling on a wooden floor

The lone ring of an explosion and not a sound more

Splattered on walls

Like graffiti in a bathroom stall

Is that all there is

For will I truly even be missed

So long I dreamed my brains turned to pink mist

I didn't hear that spent round

Rolling around upon dirt covered ground

The hammer fell, my rifle went click

After all it's the failure that made me sick

A suicide attempt

for so long has held me in contempt

I reach out to those who haven't tried

Those who have never seen me cry

Just know I've been there too

With my mind cluttered like a fence-less zoo

No where to turn, nowhere to hide

Deep inside wanting to die

Hidden behind a smile so sweet

But late at night you plead and plead

Lord as I lay down my head tonight, please take my light

Please take my life

There's no one there who really ever cared

There's no one who would notice if I disappeared

Another drone gone from this world

Another statistic, another study

Another wish to be found bloody

But I failed, I didn't die and each and everyday I question why

So I wish and I pray this pain goes away

But I feel like for me, it's here to stay

A live shell casing

It didn't roll on the floor

It stayed in the mag

A click and nothing more