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"You're awake." Hoseok's voice startles me and I glance down at the blanket that I had certainly not had fallen asleep with. I look around the room and he clears his throat. "I laid Cammie in her crib last night, she hasn't woken up yet." He adds on and I nod in relief.
"What time is it?" I sit up, feeling stiff in the back from sleeping on the couch but it wasn't too bad. Hoseok glances at his watch, raising his brows and I don't know but that little action made him look so good. I bite down on my lip.
"It's about to be seven. Did you sleep okay? I didn't take you to your bed since I wasn't sure how'd you react." He murmurs, leaning back on the other couch and I nod.
"I'm okay. What about you? I kinda took your bed." He cracks a smile and shrugs his shoulders.
"Seeing you sleep was enough for me."
"That doesn't make sense." I argue, removing the blanket from my body and I stand up. He does the same and breaks the little space between us as he stands face to face with me. I gulp thickly. "w-what is it?"
Hoseok backs away, "can we talk?"
I frown but nod. He takes a seat on the couch and motions me to do the same which I do. Our knees touch when I do but I try not to let it show how much it affected being near him.
"Why don't you hate me?" He scoffs to himself and shakes his head. "Actually I don't even know why you still even love me. I broke your heart didn't I?" He steals a glance into my eyes and I smile sadly as I nod. "So why? Why are you allowing me to be in your guy's lives? I'm a horrible dad and an even worse boyfriend. I couldn't fight off my addiction to alcohol and so I pushed you away when you needed me the most-"
"You didn't know." I remind him. He shakes his head.
"That's no excuse Elizabeth. I-I should've checked up on you."
"Cammie already loves you, she's a baby and for the first year of her life the only father figure she's known is Jimin but the way she clicked with you when you first held her like she knew who you were, it shows that you're going to be a great dad to her." I reach out for his hand and he flinches when I make contact. "I tried to hate you Hoseok. Believe me I did, everytime I cried I thought it was because I never wanted to see you again when in reality it was the opposite. I craved you all through the pregnancy and I dreamed of you almost every night..." I blush upon feeling his gaze on me and I swallowed hard.
"I wanted so badly for you to feel her kicks and see her ultrasounds as she grew but you didn't and trust me that enough was reason for me to hate you." I reach out to wipe the stray tear rolling down his cheek. "But tell me, how am I supposed to hate the man I love the most in this world?" This only makes him break down and I instantly wrap my arms around his body.
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