Only one [ z.m ]

Thank you Zayn Malik

So we've all heard about Zayn leaving One direction and I must say I'm pissed, sad, heart broken and empty because all of this but I just want to thank him for being there for me these past 5 years.

I just wanted to tel you guys that i'm not going to be updating this fanfic until I feel better... I'm sorry if I made anyone sad but I just can't write right now.

Anyways... I know that I haven't met him in person but I feel like I know him as my best friend. He is always there for me as I can always turn myself to him and the boys whenever I'm sad... It just hurts so much to see that he has not been feeling good and not been happy these past weeks or even months. I just want the best for him so I have to accept the fast that he has to leave to ins himself and get himself back on his feet.

I have seen him 2 times live and it was probably the best moments in my entire life. I'm going to their concert this year in June and I'm not as excited as before but I have to do it to support my other four boys... I just feel so sad for all of the other fans who won't be able to see him this year on tour...

These past few days I have been laying in my bed crying bc I couldn't believe this was happening. I haven't been eating and haven't had contact with any of my friends bc I feel like they didn't understand what I was going through.. He is my source of happiness and it broke my heart in to millions of peaces when I found out about the news. I just hope he made the right decision.

I have heard so many rumors about Zayn and I honestly don't know what to believe anymore... I've heard that he will continue as a solo artist and that he will be releasing music with naughty boy? I just don't get it?

If he left 1D because he couldn't take the fame and everything why go on and continue as a solo artist?

Imagine how the boys must feel now?

Anyways I just wanted to tell you guys that i'm not going to be updating this fanfic until I feel better... I'm sorry if I made anyone sad but I just can't write right now. I don't feel like doing it...

There are a few people who I want to thank that made me get through these past few days.

Mette, Clara and Agnes, my best friends in real life has been such an amazing support to me because they're also big fans of 1D so they know what I'm going through. I can't thank them enough! We actually met up the day when we found out about Zayn leaving and ate some ice cream and hung out talking about Zayn. It helped me so much and it made me realize what good friends I have. They won't see this though which is sad...

Then I want to thank wateryafro who I have started to talk to and we've become very close these past few weeks. You're my best internet friend and even though you live very far away from me with different time zones and everything I can still feel that you're here with me. I just wish I could meet you and give you the biggest hug ever because you mean so much to me. You have helped me so much to get through this and I'm grateful to have you as a friend! I love you so much!

So thank you guys! We just have to stay strong and help each other through this hard time. I know Zayn will come back I can feel it, it's just that we have to hope that he will come back when he's happy again. Thank you again and I love you so much! Stay strong and please don't cut or harm yourself! ILYSM!!!!