Only one [ z.m ]

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Oh my god... Did I just confess to myself AND to Zayn that I love him? I never thought that I would be the one to say I love you first to anyone but well now I did...

Zayn looked at me and I don't know what he'll say. Please say that he loves me too... Pleas please please! What if he doesn't? Oh my god then I just made a fool out of myself!

Since he didn't say anything I guess he doesn't love me back... Fuck! Why do I have to say the most inappropriate things all the time?

"I... I should probably go." I said and stood up.

I walked to the door and closed it and leaned towards the door and slowly sat down. I don't understand... I mean he didn't even say something his face was just blank... He doesn't love me... How could I be so foolish and think that he loves me back? Like look at me I'm nothing special so I understand.

I feel like my heart just shattered in to millions of pieces. There was just something that I really expected from him to say back to me but no. This is reality... It doesn't end up like movies and it never will.

I just let the tears stream down my face as I decided to walk back to my dorm.

Great first date...

Zayn's POV

What?

Ally is in love? With me?

I can't believe it... Why the hell didn't I even say anything to her when she was here? I do lover her back but I was just out of words when she said it. I didn't really expect it.

I feel so fucked up right now, I'm bleeding all over my face, I just ruined the whole date and the girl I love said she loves me but I didn't even say that back? What the actual fuck?

I can understand that she wanted to leave because of what I gave her as reaction. Ugh! I just want to slap myself and just destroy stone thing. I'm so pissed at myself!

I need to get this right with her and tell her that I love her back. But how?

I have to make this really special because I need to prove her that I do love her back.

I need to talk to louis. I took my phone and dialed his number and after a few seconds he answered.

"Ey, the tommo tomlinson here." He said and a smile appeared on my face, I actually miss being with him. We haven't seen each other in a while.

"Hey Louis, it's Zayn."

"Zayn! How's it going mate?" He asked.

"Well... Not good." I said. I need to tell him about what happened but not over the phone.

"Is something wrong?" He asked, sounding worried now. I didn't answer for a while, I didn't know what to say really.

"I'm coming over." He said and hung up.

After pacing back and forwards, waiting for Louis to come he finally knocked on the door. I opened the door and Louis was standing there with a worried expression.

"What the fuck happened to your face?" Louis asked.

Shit! I totally forgot about the fight with Harry...

"Me and Harry got in a fight and Ally was there watching and trying to stop me but I punched her away when she tried to stop me. I could have hit her!" I said and sat down on the bed leaning my head on my hands.

"Why did you get in a fight with him? And no you wouldn't hit her because no mater how angry you are you will never hit her." He said, how can he always be so good at giving advise and like listen to my problems?