EXO Imagines [One Shot]

5 | SEHUN

"I never leave you"

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I turned back after heard someone called my name. It was a familiar voice.

"Sehun?" I asked myself.

I continued walking fastly. I didn't want him followed me but I knew, with a pair of his long legs, impossible he can't follow and faster than me.

Suddenly my wrist was being pulled by him. His gripped was too tight. I can't pull my hand back.

"I told you to not go to his house right?! Why did you do it again?! He is a man _____! I always told you, don't go to his house but why you can't obey it huh?! I am really disappointed with you!" He looked into my eyes with sharp look. Wait, his eyes looked very sad? But why? I'm not his friend or girlfriend but why he always cared about me? Who am I for him? Moreover, we were not a classmate. I was only a stupid girl but he? He was an intelligent boy and always in top 3.

I tried to pull my hand but his gripped became more tight. He then released his hand from mine. Suddenly he hugged me so tight. I just... felt so safe. Safe.

"You hurt me Sehun" I said with low voice on his chest. I can't look at his eyes. Actually I avoided his gaze.

He only sighed and slowly released his hugged.

"Follow me" He suddenly pulled my hand but I didn't want to follow him. I pulled back my hand of him. Luckily his grip didn't tight like before.

"No! Please, I don't understand you. Why do you really care about me huh? Who are you for me and who is me for you? Nothing! Okay? Nothing! So don't pretend like I'm your friend or whatever because we don't have any relationship! And one more thing you should know, you are disturbing my life!" I hollored in anger. I couldn't hold this anymore. He always acted this way. When I went to my friend's house, he always yelled at me that I shouldn't go there. So what? He was my friend at all.

He looked very shocked. Then I realized that I shouldn't had said that. I didn't expect that I'll say those mean sentences. I knew my words will hurt him but I just... I just can't stand like this anymore. But, I didn't think that my last sentence was true. I didn't think he was disturbing my life. I was... lying. Actually I liked him being like that. I felt safe.

He suddenly took back steps, stayed away from me. I could only bit my lower lip. And so I knew I already hurt him.

"I-I'm so sorry for disturbing your life. I-I'll go. Sorry for everything. I-I just want to be your protector and protect you from everything. From all men in this world but I couldn't. I did this because I knew what you have had in your life. Once, I'm sorry. I hope that you'll find someone that will make you feel so safe with and... marry him" He said as he walked far from me. Marry him. It was like a knife stabbed on my back repeatedly. It hurt me so much. I didn't know why but I felt like my light had gone from my pathetic life. I didn't know why but to see him walk away from me, I can't. It felt like half of my life had gone. I didn't know why I felt like this. This was what I wanted to be, but now I didn't want him to go. I was ego.

The next day, I waited for him but he didn't appear. He always did this, in the morning before I went to my work, he will send me a tupperware of food. So I will not get hungry when I was working. At first, I didn't want to eat but lastly, I ate. All. Hungryly. Like a monster.

"He really hurts with my words" But still, I decided to wait for him.

One month,

Two month,

A year,

5 year passed but,

"He is still not appear" I said as I brushed my long hairs and thought about him. Before, my hairs was so short and now my aged was 23. And my behaviour changed because him, Sehun. I began to not go to boys' house. Started from the day he left me, I knew that he was half of my life. If he left, my life gone. And I also knew that I love him, because his cared. I was all alone since he left me. My parents had gone also because of an accident and it was before Sehun appeared in my life, cheer me up eventhough I tried to ignore him but finally, I was the one who was hurt. I was ego. But still, I felt him. I felt him still around me. I didn't know if it was true but my heart said it.