P r a y T e l l s

You Feel Like Home

"... I don't need you. I don't need you."
I kept it going, on and on in my mind.
But in every time I take a deep breath...
I always find myself going back to the place I miss the most.
To the place I felt so fucking safe, comforted, at home.
I close my eyes and see that place.
Me, wrapped around your arms.
You, burying  your face down to my neck and sniffing me.
Us, enjoying our simple moments and embracing each other.
All at the same time, just you.
You are a place, my home.
It hurts to think that I'll never be able to go back.

"I want to go back."

I want to feel safe, comforted, and at home without just seeing it when I close my eyes.
Because, if I'll continue to, I will go crazy.
I don't even want to live inside my mind.
Because it makes me miss you more than I already do.
But, hey!
What choice do I have, right?
I just love you that much.

-fai

Penned in March 4, 2024.