𝐒𝐂𝐀𝐓𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐃 (billie eilish)

𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐏𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐑𝐓𝐘 𝐅𝐈𝐕𝐄

⚠️ᴛʜɪꜱ ᴄʜᴀᴘᴛᴇʀ ᴄᴏɴᴛᴀɪɴꜱ ꜱᴇxᴜᴀʟ ᴄᴏɴᴛᴇɴᴛ. ʏᴏᴜ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ʙᴇᴇɴ ᴡᴀʀɴᴇᴅ⚠️

𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐥𝐢𝐞 𝐖𝐞𝐬𝐭 / 𝐏𝐎𝐕 

"I was really calling you because ... I'm worried about mom" My heart starts to raise when I mention her. I really hope nothing bad ever happens to her.

"What's bothering you? When I spoke to her yesterday she seemed normal to me" Vincent's voice is calm and if what I said worried him, he wouldn't show it.

"I don't really know..." I doubt. "She seems off like something is bothering her, but she won't talk to me about it"  I don't know what I expect from him, he's miles away, maybe I just need someone who loves her as much as I do. 

"Sis, you know how mom is... she will never give us a glimpse of any problem she has. We didn't even know they were parting until the day of the divorce" My brother was the most affected because he had no idea, I lived day to day with them.

"I know... but what can I do? I have a bad feeling, dude. And now I don't even see her that much" My voice comes out more shaky than I expected, I need him to help me. I really wish he was here. 

"Hey, calm down C. I'm gonna talk to her and try to figure out what is wrong, but I need you to be okay, don't worry too much, I'm sure is nothing so important" His words manage to calm me. 

I know I can sound a bit dramatic, but it's my mom and this feeling won't go away, so I have to do something.

"Okay, I'm gonna try to get my shit together" I giggle out of nervousness. 

"Sometimes we need to keep our shit together for the rest, you know. And I know you can do that" He adds. 

"I miss you, bro. It would be so much easier and fun with you here..." He really makes everything seem so easy. 

"Be careful what you wish for little sister" I can hear his unique laugh through the phone. "I gotta go now, I'll talk to you soon" 

"Aight', take care"  Is sad when we have to say goodbye. 

"Don't worry so much or you'll get many wrinkles... I love you" He laughs. 

"Love you too," I say, and the call disconnects. 

I only have a few hours left to work, and these kinds of calls suck all my energy. I just wish I had Billie here to vent.

Supposedly we would meet today and have a date but they called her at the last minute for a meeting for the album release. So I decided to go to work today to have another day off.

Every time something like this happens, Billie worries too much about leaving me and does her best to let me know that she really wishes she was with me than at the label. But I understand, that this is her life and I don't pretend to have her for me 24/7, although I would like that... very much. 

I can't deny that  I love all the attention she gives me when we can't see each other, little messages, snippets of songs or covers, food at my door... I live for the smallest details, that shit makes me really happy.

I start to daydream about her and realize that I must leave soon or I'll be late, so I take a shower, grab my things and drive to the club.

It has been a few days since I ran into Daryl and I must admit that every day I come to work I am afraid of meeting him again.