Red Velvet

Hospital Sheets (Ch. 15)

Luna's POV:

It has all gotten worse. Last week I blacked out twice. I woke up screaming last night. The pain was nothing like I'd ever experienced. So intense that everything felt numb, I practically felt paralyzed. I was rushed to the emergency room, but after all of that, it was gone. I was gone.

And in this second right now I'm not quite sure whether I'm in the after life. It's just white and I feel at peace once more. Maybe for the last time. Maybe this is it. I'll meet again with the people I have lost. Maybe I'll be without pain now. But I won't be okay. Not without Tate.

Tate's POV:

Staring at Luna in this condition is heart breaking. I've fallen beyond words for this girl. Knowing that this princess that lies before me might not even wake from her tranquilized state breaks me. It hasn't been long but it's real. Luna gives me a feeling that no one could ever give me. She really is a person no one could ever break. One with a personality that's brighter than the sun. One with eyes that glimmer unlike any ocean. One with hair that is always flawlessly draped over her shoulders with a few loose strands, but at every chance I get I tuck the loose pieces behind her ear, just to tilt her head up so I can press our lips together and get the spark that will never fade.

I've never had a feeling so deep. So intense. And it's hard to admit but I know in my heart, that I'm in love. So in love. I've never known of a feeling like this but I know for a fact that I'm in love with Luna Mae.

When I first met Luna Mae I knew it was something. I instantly felt an urge to consume her in any way I could. I wanted her to be a part of me. When I'm with her I feel out of control. She makes me crazy in such an amazing way. When I kiss her I often find myself losing it. Losing track of where my lips end and hers begin. I'm so deep in her kiss, I want to be as close to her as I can. Luna Mae is surely something else.

Sitting in the room with my motionless and emotionless princess is such a weight to bear. I want her to awake from her state of unconsciousness. The air in the room is thick with sorrow.

Her parents sit on the opposite side of the bed as I. After a while of sitting in silence I decide it's too much. I unlatch Luna Maes hand from mine and kiss her forehead before I exit the room.

I walk to my car and slam the door, hard. I feel broken. Falling apart. I run my fingers through my hair, tugging at my scalp, while hot tears are running down my cold face. I rest my head gently on the steering wheel. It becomes so hard to breath and when I do catch my breath all that emerges are hard sobs, that hurt my chest.

The one person that I'd ever gotten close with might be taken from me. I was just beginning to learn this girl inside and out. I thought that I would have her to keep its been three months and I've got this girl but she may be taken away. I want this surgery to happen and I want to be with her for a long time. Luna Mae is one amazing woman with a heart bigger than anyone I know.

I turn my car on and drive. Just drive. Fast. Away from the hospital. Her beautiful features distracting my focus for a minute. When Luna Mae wakes up I want to do everything with her. I want everything for that girl. I'm in love with her. I really have no idea how I ended up with her. I'm just some selfish jock. She's an amazing, caring, trustworthy, beautiful, dancing, tumor having princess.

Maybe I really am selfish. Maybe she is too good for me.

This is the last thought I have before it all goes dark. Struck by another car in the busiest intersection of the city. Maybe I am selfish. I was only thinking about myself. How I didn't want Luna Mae to go. And how she mine. I wasn't thinking about her and how getting myself hurt might affect her if she wakes up. Maybe I should've thought about her when I missed the red light, and drove through the intersection, during rush hour at 65 miles per hour.

I'm sorry Luna Mae. I'll think about you next time. If there is a next time for me.