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"CHARLES LECLERC is hot, but you know who else is hotter?" I turn to my left to Kai and continued talking whilst I sat next to him since he was selfish enough to take most of the blanket.
"Who?"
"Daniel Riccardo, he's adorable. I don't know how he's single bro, if only he knew I existed." I sighed and lay down on the couch, "Lando Norris is also adorable, but George Russell probably more my type."
"That's nice to know." Clearly Kai was unbothered, of course he wouldn't be.
"What about you, I see you and potato tot have gotten very, very close than I thought." The thought of Kai or my best friends hanging out with Tate made me feel quite replaced. Valentina slightly made me feel better when she stated that she still hated her.
I still hate her too, obvs.
"Uh yeah, when you left she kinda started hanging out with us since Riley got a boyfriend." He lightly mumbles, "Please don't ever think I tried replacing you, I could never do that."
"It's alright Kai, I'm just surprised that you just like Tate being around."
"I don't really, she just brings herself around. It's awkward even when she'd introduce me to her parents. God her parents think we're dating." Kai placed his hands in his face then combed his hair with them, his face was pink and clearly he was annoyed over it.
"Her poor parents."
"I know right."
The silence then reappeared and you could only hear the sounds of Lewis Hamilton and Max Verstappen on the Tv. Most parts I'd see Kai glance at me or he would see me glancing at him.
"Why didn't you tell me you were leaving?"
I slowly look towards Kai to see him fully facing me this time, "I guess I didn't want to say goodbye to you because if I did, It'd hurt even more."
"We could of worked things out Rowan." His German accent kept slipping out and he continued messing around with my old bracelet on his wrist, "I would of visited you every holiday."
"But when I left more opportunity's came to you and me, like you played for Leverkusen and play for Chelsea and Germany." I sighed and shifted my body to face him, "Then I became a manager for one of the most successful celebrities and I was given so many opportunities like staring in campaigns or videos."
"But I was in the under 16 Germany team when you were here Rowan, them opportunities would of still happened either way." He makes a very valid point.
"Did you find someone once I left?" I silently waited for Kai to answer, took my a while before shaking his head.
"Because non of them were like you, when I started playing for under 16 Germany team or Leverkusen they only wanted me for the popularity." Kai mumbles and played with the ends of my hair, another habit he always did, "But when I had them opportunities come to me like the Germany team, you still acted the same towards me."
Saddens me that Kai wasn't able to love somebody else because of that, these days some people only love for money or fame.
"You even loved me when I had acne on my face or when I got bullied. You, Val, Jace and Grey never changed the way you all acted towards me. So I guess when you left that actually hurts because I've known you the longest of them three." A single tear fell from his eyes.
"The day I went back to school everyone thought you were sick, I got bullied more on the bus by Riley and Tate to the point I started walking to school."
Like I said, Kai was always scared to defend himself when we were smaller. He'd just let them get to him.
All I did was shake my head and let me tears out, I felt so helpless at this point.
"Days turned into weeks, weeks turned into months. Everyone practically thought you died until everyone one saw the photo of you and Blanche Styles on her instagram." The photo of me and Blanche having a sleepover together. The photo of me and Blanche posing besides Harry Styles whilst he was sleeping with pen on his face.
"So I guess I got bullied even more, everyone saying you left me for the richer and famous people. I guess that got to me so I started hating you, but deep down I always loved you."
"You know I'd choose you over Harry Styles and Blanche." I state and looked down at my hands disappointingly.
"I know, I know Ro."
"Aw fuck," I stood up from my place and walked around the living room with one hand on my hip and one on my forehead, "God Kai, if only I were there."
"Know it's never your fault Rowan, no matter what." Kai then stood up and held onto both my hands whilst I practically cried into his chest.
"I love you Kai."
"I love you more Rowan." Kai gently got my left hand and slid my fake ring onto my ring finger, he brought up slowly against his lips and kissed it.
"You kept the ring?"
"You never know what'll happen in the future but we promised one another that one day we'd get married." I hugged his waist.
"Yeah, one day maybe." Kai's forehead rested on my head, to be honest is two were actually tall.
"I know we're getting older, but I've always been thinking of you for years." Kai mumbles into my head once turning the TV us.
"Really?" He nods.
"Does it ever drive you crazy that somehow we're reunited?" Kai asked me, my head continued to stay on his chest and slowly nodded my head.
I didn't really expect my night to go from not wanting to see Kai at all to us two practically clinging onto one another whilst helplessly crying.
Oh just how fast the night changes.
"Please don't go Rowan, I need you in my life." I felt his tears land on my shoulder, this poor guy has been through a lot. My heart broke once I heard him sobbing.
"Kai you don't have to worry now, I'm here now. I promise you I'm not going anywhere."
— author speaks if it isn't obvious by now, yes i was inspired from night changes and let's talk abt how hot zayn looked in that music video : )
