i wish i'd stop crying when people yell at me
i cant help but wish i could.
i don't know...
everything just gets so distorted,
their words go through my ear much more hateful
"you are nothing but a disappointment."
that's not how their lips are moving...
and yet that's all i seem to hear
"you are worthless.
i don't love you.
i wish you never existed."
i
wish
i could scream.
i have done everything to make you proud
i am worth more than you'll ever be
that's okay, i
don't
need your love anyway
and i wish i believed that
i wish i believed my existence matters
but i don't
and i can't.
so i guess i'll just keep on wishing
until i can no longer wish for anything at all
