Change me.. (Jeff the killer love story)

Im Lonely

Chapter 31- Change me

I kept on listening to Jeff though the door as I sat there thinking about everything.

"And I just wanted to say that. Uhh.. Try to remember -" he kept on going and going. Many things started popping into my head and I got up suddenly and unlocked the door. I slowly opened it and peeked. He looked down at me.

"I want to know why I'm here Jeff." I said firmly. I knew I wasn't here because I ran away. He could of easily forgotten about me if it wasn't that important. I have to get to the bottom of this. I left the door opened and walked to the bed and sat on it. I patted and beckoned him to come. He slowly walked towards me and sat besides me. I looked directly at him.

"You need to tell me." He said.

As he spoke those words it all came back to my head. It was john..

"I-I was running away from John. He wanted me to marry him. And my parents. They were in on it too. I couldn't anymore. I had to pack all my things up and I took off.. I- " I started spilling everything as I went. I was remembering as I talked everything made complete sense. The room was kinda dark, the only light filling the room was the hallway light.

"Why where you wearing that dress... Why didn't you stop running when I called you..?" He whispered, in a low voice. I looked at him and thought about it.... That was Jeff calling my name?

"I went to my parents house and they made me put this dress on and it was prom night and I don't know. I was so confused that night.. I was scared, I was shot, I was.. I- i don't know." His hands went around my shoulders as I spoke.

"I- I believe you.." He said suddenly. I looked up at him once again. Trying so hard to hold back the tears and face the real reality.

"I want you to tell me why I'm here. I know it isn't because I ran away." I said suddenly. I want to get straight to the point. He took his hands off of me.

"I missed you." He said. My heart started beating quickly. My face was hot. I looked down. I felt his hand on my chin, he lifted it up slowly, to where now I was looking at him in the eyes.

"You don't remember?" He said once again. I was in silence.. It was his turn to do the talking. I put my hands on my lap and felt the cold ground on my feet.

"The promises we made to each other... The things we did together. What we started feeling towards each other...?" His voice quivered a little. What does he mean the feelings...? I looked up at him, and breath loudly.

"No..." I said staring straight down. "No I don't remember any of that... And I don't want too.. I'm sorry I can't. I can't right now. I don't know what your talking about. But I remember you. But I can't remember you how you want me too... I-I'm sorry..." I held on to my head and closed my eyes. I don't get it. I don't. I started moving my leg. I was getting restless. He is a killer... But I've killed someone... I was in a gang.. I killed Maria. I can't say that I can't be with him because he is a killer. I was with him once... I guess.

He looked at me in a different way..

"I understand. I have to go." He got off the bed and walked towards the door. He slowly shut the door and I was sitting there in complete darkness. Maybe I was to hard on him.. I want to remember about "us" but I can't...

I slowly laid on the bed and put the warm blanket over my body. I slowly closed my eyes and drifted off into a sleep.

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I woke up suddenly. The sun was really bright. It was blinding me. I took the blanket off and closed the blinds. I got into the bed that was next to the window and picked out some warm clothes I quickly changed and put everything back into the bag. I fixed my hair up a little bit and opened the door. I walked down the hall into the living room.