Repeat After Me

Part Nine: Retrograde

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Mistake
Just checking on you

Soraya
Why?

Mistake
You haven't posted anything since your birthday
Mistake
We also haven't talked in two months
Mistake
I know you're not okay so like I said I'm just checking up on you

Soraya
I'm managing
Soraya
Trying to figure out if and when I'll tell Matt

Mistake
You're gonna tell him?

Soraya
I kinda have to Jack, I just can't continue dating him with the guilt eating me up

Mistake
How have you been coping with that?

Soraya
Not that great
Soraya
I've been going out a lot more and coming home late so I'm not in my head
Soraya
How bout you?

Mistake
I don't feel bad for sleeping with you

Soraya
You should

Mistake
Why? I have no particular feelings towards Matthew so
Mistake
The circumstances aren't great because of how it's making you feel, but I don't regret it
Mistake
I was there for you, not him

Soraya
What are you saying?
Soraya
Do you have feelings for me or something?

Mistake
I do. I never had the chance to tell you back then so I'm telling you now
Mistake
I want you

Soraya
Fuck Jackman
Soraya
Why do you insist on complicating my life further?

Mistake
I had to tell you
Mistake
It's not like there was a perfect time I could tell you

Soraya
You shouldn't have told me at all
Soraya
I gotta go

Mistake
Do you think we can talk in person?

Soraya
I'll think about it
Read at 2:07 pm

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Matty boy 💚
hey love
Matty boy 💚
mia told me u haven't been feeling too good

my girl 👩🏽‍❤️‍💋‍👨🏻
Wish she didn't tell you that

Matty boy 💚
ur up. isn't it like early over there?

my girl 👩🏽‍❤️‍💋‍👨🏻
Well I have to be up at weird hours to talk to you
my girl 👩🏽‍❤️‍💋‍👨🏻
I'm okay, just dealing with some shit

Matty boy 💚
do u wanna talk about it?

my girl 👩🏽‍❤️‍💋‍👨🏻
I rather tell you in person and when you're not on tour

Matty boy 💚
damn ur gonna make me wait 5 months :/

my girl 👩🏽‍❤️‍💋‍👨🏻
It'll go by fast
my girl 👩🏽‍❤️‍💋‍👨🏻
I'm sorry for the things I said on my birthday. I know you do care about me