A Silent Song - corpsekkuno

Chapter 6

-Lotus's POV-

((OOOOOOOOO NEW POV))

Lotus laid back on the couch after Corpse had left. They looked up at Nino and frowned softly. "I wish you'd talk.." Nino mumbled and kissed their head. "But I understand.. I'm gonna make you some coffee okay?" Nino said. Lotus nodded and looked at the tv. "I can talk and I would but I don't want to.." Lotus thought to themself. "I just.. I can't" they sighed quietly stretched. Lotus flinched, hearing their phone go off. They grabbed it and quickly got rid of the notification. They knew that the amount of times they flinched worried Nino. They wished they had the courage to explain to Nino why they were anxious all the time and flinched so much and why they stopped talking. From Nino's point of view, it was just Lotus got dumped and stopped talking. It was so much more than that, though. So much more. To make matters worse for Lotus, they were pretty much in love with Nino but too scared to do anything about it. Lotus felt bad about what had happened to Corpse and wished they could help. So, they grabbed their phone and started doing research on GERD. They learned the side effects, looked at stories from people who had it, and made sure they learned how to properly help people with it. They frowned, seeing all the things that Corpse had to go through. All the pain, it wasn't fair. Corpse was such an amazing person and he deserved so much better than this. Though Lotus couldn't change it, they knew they could help him at least feel better. So they started doing research to find a way to get Corpse his voice back. Nino walked into the living room and handed Lotus their coffee. "You okay? Your phone keeps going off..." Nino said softly. Lotus nodded, not wanting to tell Nino what was happening or why they were all jumpy. Nino nodded and sat next to Lotus, pulling them close and cuddling them tight. Lotus watched as Nino flicked through tv channels. They cuddled into him and let out a small breath. They always felt safer when Nino was around and they didn't know why or how to explain it. They felt like nothing could ever hurt them when Nino was around. Unfortunately, though, they knew that wasn't true. It was just a matter of time before Noah found them again. Them being safe was just an illusion to begin with. At any moment Noah could find where they were hiding and come get them. But Lotus was determined to enjoy the safe feeling while they could. Putting their head on Nino's shoulder, they slowly drifted into another dreaded sleep. 

(Trigger warning for the next bit - descriptions of ab*se and s*xual ass*lt! I'll tell you when the bit is over by putting (end) after the last sentence so you can skip it if needed!!) ((ITALICS IS EITHER A DREAM OR THOUGHTS OR FLASHBACK, CONTEXT WILL BE PROVIDED))

Lotus walked through their house, shaking. They were home alone for once. They went to the kitchen and made themselves some coffee. Everything was calm and quiet. Rain patted against the roof and for a second they almost relaxed. Snapping out of the small daze they were in as they made their coffee, they looked up and thought they saw Noah standing in the doorway. They stepped back and his figure was gone. Lotus took a sip of their coffee, listening to the rain as it hit the roof and ground. They wanted nothing more than to be back home with their brother, Clay. They heard the lock of the door click and they jumped slightly. They watched as Noah dragged himself inside. He was roughly 6'3 and his blackish-brown hair had fallen into his face. He pushed it back and walked toward Lotus. Lotus put down their coffee and looked up at him. Noah grabbed their waist and shoved them against the wall in slight anger. Lotus winced in pain and looked away. Noah then grabbed the coffee cup and threw it at them. Lotus flinched away, still getting burned by the coffee and cut by some of the shattered glass scratching them. (END)

Lotus woke with a start, barely breathing. They carefully got up from Nino's hold and walked outside. They put their hand on their cheek where the scars from the cup were. Shaking more, they pulled out their phone and texted their brother that they would be there soon, then left without a word.

A/N: I'm sorry for this chapter and the next few :) it surrounds Lotus a bit more but it will go back to Corpse and Sy, it's just like some context for why Lotus is the wat they are