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Infinity

Dear Love

You are my paradise. You are the one person I would sacrifice my life for. I would do everything for you until I can not anymore. And even then, yes, even then I would still try to be there. To be the one person to keep you safe. I love you for infinity and I know you did too.

And it is eating me alive. The feeling of failure. That stupid feeling of knowing I was not good enough. I was not the right one. I failed. I wanted to take care of you. But I could not.

Now I am watching you. Standing here. Me, a memory you once shared your life with. A warm, lovely small memory of someone you used to love. I left, now you are all alone. You are by yourself now. You are alone now- with someone else. Now the two of you are alone together. And no matter how hard I try to reach you, it is too late. I can not. I wish I could but I know I can not. I just hope you will not forget what we used to share.
I hope you still feel the warmth when you think of me. My love for you. Infinity I said and I mean it. Infinity is what I wanted for us. Now my infinity is over as I'm watching you with them.

The one person I cared about most, falling in love again. Feeling the breathtaking and beautiful touch of love. My loved one laying close to a body that does not belong to me. Not even a glance of my soul left.
But who am I to judge? I left them. All alone- all by themselves. I was the one to leave, even though I did not want to. I never wanted to die. I never wanted to leave you all by yourself.

But what can I say now? Watching you is making me die all over again. It is even worse than the first time. Knowing we will never be together anymore. You will always be the one for me, I will be another memory locked up in your beautiful endless mind. A shadow for you.

What can I say? I'm a mad man, wanting your touch. I will make my memory of you last forever. I want you to be happy. You are my paradise, love. You made me believe in faith. You made me believe in love and you showed me what it feels like to be wanted. The time with you felt like it was frozen. My time with you was perfect in any possible time. Oh I love you my love.
I want you to be mine but I know it's not possible. It's not possible anymore now that I'm gone. I have lost everything. I have lost you. And you hurts more than anything I have ever lost in my eternity. I do love you for infinity. I mean it, I always will.

Goodbye my love, my warmth, my light- take care of yourself and your now loved one. I will never forget you dear.

Yours sincerely,

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