A Father's Daughter

Chapter Twenty-One

Waking up in Spencer's arms this morning was incredible. But the feeling didn't last long once I remember his confession from last night. Spencer Reid is in love with me and knowing that makes my heart flutter but also my stomach turn. As badly as I want to be happy about everything, my brain won't allow it. I tried to push past my negative thoughts but I can't seem to do so.

I untangle myself from his arms and quickly get dressed in my outfit from last night before going into the bathroom to brush my teeth with the toothbrush I left here from the last time I spent the night. I focus all of my energy into brushing my teeth, hoping that hyper fixating on a simple task will calm my nerves.

It works for the time being but I know it's not going to last long and I need to get out of here. I look down at my phone after I spit out the toothpaste and wash my face to see that it's only 8 am. I don't want to wake Spencer but I also know that if I leave without saying anything at all, it's going to upset him.

I lean over and kiss his forehead before I whisper, "Spencer?"

He groans but doesn't fully wake up. I roll my eyes and sit down on the bed next to him. I run my fingers through his hair and kiss his cheek.

"Reid?" I say slightly louder now, "Babe, I got to go."

He slowly opens his eyes and sighs, "good morning."

His voice is deeper and raspy with sleep and I realize that it's become my favorite sound.

He lifts his arms and pulls me down so that I'm laying on top of him, causing me to gasp and laugh at the sudden movement. He places one of his hands on my cheek and brings his lips to mine, kissing me softly.

"I had fun last night," He tells me between kisses.

I smile and slowly push myself off him, "I did too." I let out a sigh, "I hate to do this, but I have to go."

He groans and pulls me back down so that we're face to face and my hands are pinned against his bare chest and my clothed one.

"Do you have to?" He whines.

I nod before lightly kissing his lips, "I have an appointment this morning that I can't be late for."

I know it's a lie, but I know I can only keep this act up for so long before I break down further. "Plus, I can't really show up to the doctor wearing last night's dress, now can I?"

He groans again but doesn't release his grip on my hips, "I guess not. But I can't say I'm not disappointed."

I give him a sad smile and kiss him once again, "I am too, I wish I could stay because there's nothing I'd rather do than lay here with you all day. But I'll call you later, okay?"

He nods, stealing one last kiss before letting go of me so I can roll off the bed. He sits up and stretches, "if you don't mind waiting a couple minutes, I can drive you home."

I shake my head, "no, I can walk. It's only ten minutes and you need your sleep."

He picks up his briefs off the floor and slides them on before walking me to the front door of his apartment. I put on my shoes and grab my jacket off the floor of the living room. Spencer wraps his arms around my waist again, pulling me into him.

"Let me know when you're home, okay?"

I nod into his chest before looking up and quickly kissing him. He lets go of me and I walk out the door, quickly making my way down the stairs and onto the street.

I walk as quickly as I can to my apartment and once I'm inside I send a text to Spencer letting him know I made it back. I go into my bedroom and change out of last night's clothes and into a pair of joggers and a tank top before going into the second bedroom. I need to think and it's probably the best place to do it. I jump up on my desk and sit down on top of it.