I wake up to the sound of Ivy laughing. Aggggghh. Why should she laugh when I'm so upset? Well actually that's not right but STILL. She shouldn't do it within my earshot. Although strictly saying that, she has no idea how upset I am.
The messages have got worse, if that's even possible. People who I don't even know have dm'd me, telling me horrible stuff. And Tanya, having been my best friend since I was six, has got plenty of embarrassing photos of me and has delighted in showing them to the whole wide world. Great.
I usually bunk off school now as well. There's no point in even going as Tanya makes it such a misery I can't concentrate. It's just stupid to think that this whole thing started off by. It's just unfair.
I sigh and switch on my laptop. It's like I'm addicted to seeing what people have said. I hate it, but I can't stop. On messages, new people have followed @DieCassidy. Yes, there is an account called that, I assume run by Tanya, that puts horrible pictures of me on there. I see there's a new video on there - of me doing a stupid dance in my underwear. I dont even remember Tanya filming that. There's already hundreds of comments; 'ew', 'omg she's such a slut!', 'gross, she's such a fugly loser'.
I flinch at each comment until I get to the end, and then tears well up in my eyes. I firmly press my shaking lips together and clench my jaw. I will get Tanya back for this, I tell myself, but it doesn't work.
I lean back in my chair, and breathe slowly. I need to concentrate on something else. I look at the papers on my desk, and pick one up, smiling faintly. I remember now. My school runs a yearly trip to a country that is in need of help, that has just had a disaster hit it.
This year, they're going to the Philippines, as they've just had all the typhoons. The last entry form is to be submitted by Wednesday, tomorrow. I check my watch. It's 7:20. I could just make it to school if I get ready now. Hurriedly, I throw on a white turtle neck tank top and some dark navy jeans, put my white converse on, brush my hair, wash my face and clean my teeth, and, grabbing my phone, I run to school.
I get there just as the bell rings, and make my way to Registration. Mrs Landow raises her eyebrows. "Cassidy. What a surprise. I was starting to think you'd died". I flame scarlet red and swallow. "I'm really sorry, Mrs Landow. I was ill, and I totally forgot to ring up!". She sighs, and nods. "Hmnn.".
I slump back in my seat, sighing with relief, and I hear voices at the back of me. Something pokes me in the back, and I turn around to find Tanya, smirking and holding a note. With my hands shaking, I take it, turn around and read it.
HEY, BITCH. SHE WAS STARTING TO THINK YOUD DIED. HUH. I WISH. WE ALL WISH. YOU SHOULD JUST GO AND DIE, IT WOULD BE BETTER FOR EVERYONE.
I gulp, as tears start formingnin my eyes. Sliding the note into my pocket, I feel the form, and feel slightly better, invisioning me helping all the orphaned children.
At break, I go to Miss Murray, the head of year's room, and give her the form and my money, and she, in return, hands me the details of the trip. It's just three weeks away, so I'm really excited.
I'm at my locker, when I see Ivy. Her face splits into a grin, and she hugs me tight. "Cass!!! Do you feel better? Are the bullies stopping? Are you and Tanya friends again?! ".
Her eager, inquisitive face makes me sad, and I want to tell her, but it would just make her worried. I take a deep breath and nod. "Yeah. I feel better, the messages have died down, and me and Tan are better friends than ever!". She beams, and hugs me again. "Yay!! I just think - ".
Suddenly, a cute boy, who is too young for me walks by, and stops. "Ivy!". He has floppy blonde hair, and big brown eyes. "Are we still on for tonight?". Ivy breaks away from me, and bites her lip awkwardly, walking closer to the boy. She nods shyly, and he says something, which she giggles about. Ivy turns around to me. "Bye, Cass!", she smiles, waving at me and walking off with the boy. I smile back fondly, and walk to lunch.
Lunch is carbonara pasta, with cake and custard for pudding. After I collect it, I'm walking down the aisles, when I trip up, landing face first into my lunch. Face flaming for the second time that day, I shakily stand up, wiping an arm across my face as the canteen erupts in laughter.
Turning my head sideways, I hear a harsh voice, whispering "Whoops!". Tanya. Her hair is golden and immaculate, in a Hollister jumper and jeans, Lauren and Zyla by her side.
I feel tears starting again, and I run out of the canteen, out of the block, out of the school. I run home, slamming the door and burying my face in my pillow. I hear the door creak open and don't bother to look up. "Ivy?", I murmur. The room stays silent. "Mum? Dad?". Everything is silent. I wipe my eyes and look up. Charlotte stands there awkwardly, touching her arm. "Cassidy."
I grit my teeth and fall back onto my bed. "What?", I mumble. She sighs and slowly sits down next to me. I flinch and stiffen. She sees this and sighs. "We need to talk.". I groan and shake my head, standing up. "No, Charlotte. We don't.". She opens her mouth. "Bu-". "We do not need to talk.". She sighs and goes out, me closing the door behind her.
Out of habit I lazily flick on my phone and startlingly realise how many notifications I've got. I click onto them.
Messages:
@_tan_tanxo tagged you in a photo.
@_tan_tanto tagged you in a video
@_tan_tanxo commented: @_xCassx_ is such a fugly freak and loser. This video proves it. #loser #justdieplease #lolz #banta @it's racheeeelll commented: ew what a freak.
@helloworldimjoe commented: haha omg she's so ugly it hurts my eyes.
@beastboy6079 commented: where she is, down on the floor like the b^tch she is, she should be down there always.
@little-miss-lucy commented: @_xCassx_ haha lmfao why are you so ugly, is your mom and dad a pug and a chimpanzee?
The list goes on and on. I bite my quivering lip, and a lump forms in my throat. I screenshot the comments and save them, sighing with relief. After the holiday, this is going to stop. Forever.
A/N I know this chapter is really long compared to the other ones but idk, I just felt like doing a long one. Do you like long chapters or short chapters, comment below and thanks sooo much for reading!
