01/11/2021 , 01:47 - 02:12 a.m.
Dear Crush ,
How are You ?!! Good ?!!
I'm fine too !
Just going with the flow , where you are nowhere to be seen !
I try to ignore the feeling of Missing You , but it's useless !
Don't You Miss Me too ...?? Just .... Sometimes at least ?!
You know , I was thinking today about ... How I can ignore the thoughts of You ! But I go nowhere in the end !
Infact I remembered something else , and kept thinking about that !
I remember what happened after my confession !
If I knew what was coming , I would have never Confessed to You ! Ever !
That was Your Trap too ! To which I really fell !
How wouldn't I ?? Being an excited silly teenager ,
I thought that finally after confessing I would come to some progress !
But oh ! How wrong was I !
That confession became one of my Mistakes !
Just after that day , You just started to ignore me totally on face !
You would see my messages .... And never reply them !
I know , this sounds just nothing ! Even I don't feel anything about it now , unless Disappointment !
But at that time , I felt so insecure about Myself !
That really turned bad in My Life !
I never wanted to say it loud but , You made me feel inferior about Myself !
I lost all the confirmation about Myself !
After that , I started to talk less , interact less , and I just slowly slowly isolated Myself from people !
At the moment that now , other than My Family .... I know no one ! In my mobile phone , there are only finger countable contacts , that are too my family !
And ..... Of course of You too ! How can I delete You contact ! I can't dare to ! Cause even if do it's learnt by heart ! I can't erase it !
Sometimes I really Wish , Just like You did , I wish I could also ignore You for life !
But here I am , can't even ignore the thought of You !
My First ever Crush Story .... Crashed so sadly !
And I can't even complain about it !
But I want to wish You Happiness !
I want Your story to come with Happiness !
I Miss You !
And I will Miss You ! 🧡
Yours ,
One of the ignored fan girls !
