I hear a knock at the door and wonder who it could possibly be. I pull myself off the sofa, dusting off the popcorn kernels that had gathered on my lap. I grabbed the blanket of the back of the sofa and wrapped it around my shoulders. I stifled a yawn as I shuffled over to the door.
Opening it, I was greeted by my blue eyed, floppy haired friend, a grin spread across his face. In his hand he held a plastic shopping bag, stuffed with food. My eyebrows furrowed and my head tilted as I looked at him. Why was he here at this time?
"Er... Hey Lou," I said, with a light smile. He held the bag up, putting a handle of the bag in each hand and opening it up. I glanced inside and saw all my favourite treats, plus a couple of movies that I liked a lot.
"Hey Beth. Can I come in?" he asked, nodding towards the half open door. I nodded and stepped back, opening the door fully and he sauntered inside. I shut the door and followed behind him. He'd dropped the bag on the sofa and was bent over the TV set, putting in one of the many DVDs he had brought along with him.
I couldn't help but admire the view from afar. Lou was my very best friend and, I couldn't tell him, but I had the biggest crush on him. I watched as his butt stuck in the air, his perfectly round, peachy butt. I lingered by the doorway, just staring, longing to touch it, just once. Once would be okay right? Just a rub, nothing big.
"Like what you see," he teased, still bent over the TV set. I blushed and shook my head. Of course, he couldn't see me shake my head no. "W-what?" I stuttered, pushing myself off the door frame and walking further into the room.
"It's okay love, you can admire my beautiful ass!" he chuckled, as he turned around and greeted me with a smirk and a wink. I felt my heart flutter and looked down at my feet nervously. What was wrong with me today?! I usually kept it all in, had a good hold on my emotions when he was around. But today I couldn't.
"Why are you here again," I asked, falling back onto the sofa. I pulled the bowl of popcorn I'd deserted before onto my lap and shoved a handful into my mouth. He sat beside me, grabbing some and flicked on the TV with the remote.
"What a nice welcome," he muttered, rolling his eyes. I shoved his shoulder and he laughed. "Come on Louis! Tell me why you randomly came by at 9pm, on a Wednesday night, with a bag of treats and DVDs?" I inquired, raising my eyebrows.
He sighed and turned to face me. "Alright, well I knew it was that time again, you know," he started. I eyed him curiously. He took a deep breath and continued. "You know, the time of month," he said.
My eyes widened and I gasped. My hand flashed up to cover my open mouth and I felt my cheeks heat with embarrassment. I looked away and asked, "How do you know that?"
He ran a hand through his hair and laughed nervously. "I er... I kinda k-keep t-track," he muttered, shrugging his shoulders. He blushed slightly.
"W-why?" I stuttered. Why would he keep track? And how did he even figure it all, out in the first place!?! I wasn't even sure when it was gonna happen every month for gods sake.
"I-I kinda have like an app. I just wanted to be here for you when, you know... w-when you're like sad and stuff," he whispered, looking down at his hands. I felt my heart melt and instinctively hugged him tightly.
I pulled back quickly and smiled sweetly at him. "Why do you care so much?" I asked. I mean, I knew we were best friends but this was one of those things I didn't think he'd care much about or even acknowledge really.
He shrugged. "I just... I care a lot about you Beth. I-I..." he mumbled. He groaned and tugged on his hair slightly.
"You what Louis," I urged. He paused the film and stood up, pacing back and forth and he spilled the contents of his heart right out to me. I listened intently.
"I-I.... Dammit! I love you Beth! I love you so damn much it hurts like hell. We've been best friends for so long now and I worry that if anything were to come from this" He motioned to the pair of us. "It could end badly and ruin our friendship. Not that I'd let it but we never know do we. We can't predict the future. I just... I don't want to ruin things. And I also never knew how you felt for me. You seemed to only like me as a mate and I don't like that. I want you to see me as something more.... Something, I don't know just not a friend only."
He took a deep breath and stopped pacing, standing in the middle of the room. He hands dived into his pockets, and I stood, walking over to him. I grabbed his face in my hands and made him look at me. I kissed the tip of his nose and his eyes widened.
"You are such a big idiot sometimes," I giggled, kissing his open lips. He grinned and wrapped his arms around my waist. "I love you too, so so much. You don't even understand the half of it. I do see you as a friend Lou, but I see you as more than that too and I hoped for so long you'd see me like that too. I know, I do know that if this ended badly, it could ruin things. But I wouldn't let it. I couldn't imagine losing you, because it would be like losing half my heart."
"You're amazing love," he muttered, as his lips found mine. He kissed me softly, his lips only slightly grazing mine. He pulled back and pulled me into a hug. My head only came up to his chest and he held me tightly against his warm body. "I love you, don't ever forget that," he muttered. "And I love you, don't forget that," I replied.
- Meg
