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🔪💔Suicidal!Shuichi x Reader💔🔪

⚠TW!⚠
-Angst
-Self harm
-Self hatred
-Depression
-Suicidal thoughts
If you are a person with mental problems, please do see an expert.

Enjoy this story.

*Shuichi POV*
"Are you okay?"
"Are you alright?"
Those are the questions I've been asked these days that ended up with me replying, 'I'm fine.' But, I'm far from okay. I'm actually not okay. I don't feel fine. Whenever someone asks me, 'are you okay?' Or, 'how are you doing?' I always reply them by 'I'm alright.' I'm so tired of faking my smile. I'm tired of crying my eyes out. I'm tired of hiding my sadness. I'm tired of hiding my scars. I'm tired of only smiling for another person and not myself. It hurts a lot. I just can't take it anymore.
My parents throw me away. Yes, I'm an unwanted child. I'm worthless. I got bullied every single day and my father abused me almost all the time. My mother hates me and I don't have any friends. Not even one. Even I had just one, and they betrayed me and started being a backstabber and bully me. Not just verbal, but also physical. Like, they kicked me, punched me, and even step on my body. They always call me, 'pathetic' and 'useless' everyday. My aunt and uncle always ask me if I'm okay. I always respond them with a smile and say I'm fine. They still love me, gladly. But then my uncle fell ill and died.. Also my aunt. She committed suicide and the last thing I saw from her was her suicide note. Now I have no one to care about me. I had a partner at work named Kei, he always ask me if I'm okay. Same answer. 'I'm fine.'
No longer after my uncle and aunt's death, a new pain comes by. Kaede cheated on me and broke up with me. I ran home as fast as I can, broke down on my bedroom floor and cried. My dad came in and yelled at me and asked why am I such a crybaby. He then hurt me with a belt, until I bleed. He left my room, leaving me lying on the floor, crying. But I'm smiling. I don't know why. Now I know. I'm going to do it. Yes. Again.
I rolled up my sleeve whilst sobbing, looking at the dark red scars on my wrist which looks really ugly, just like me. I'm ugly. I hate this ugly body. I hate this cumbersome body. I've cut myself a lot. I know. But my heart hurts like hell. I grabbed a razor and made new cuts on my other wrist. I cried even more. Once again, I said I'm fine...

I feel like shit. I want to die. I don't want this. I'm not going to regret committing suicide anymore. Today I'm going to die... Leaving everyone. Leaving this cruel, torturous world. I wanna die. Just wanna die. I'm not worth living. Just want to die. Die. Die. All I can think about now is death.
I walked to the rooftop, took off my shoes, slowly climb up the railing and stood on it. I feel the cold air on my face, for the last time, I think. Just I was about to throw myself, someone grabbed my forearm. I turned my back still with tears on my eyes and cheek. I saw a girl. She looked at me as if she have seen a ghost. "Don't do that! Please!" She pleaded. I shook my head. The girl pulled me off the railing, causing me to fall to the ground. She catches me.
"W-why did you saved me?" I asked the girl, as she wiped my tears. "I just.. Don't want to see anyone die. I don't want to lost another person in this earth, even though I don't know you, but still, it's very painful to see someone lost their life." She explained. "Now, can you please tell me why are you doing that? Please tell me your story." The girl in front of me asked. I told my story from my abusive parents to my girlfriend cheated on me. She didn't interrupt me. She listened to my story carefully as she nodded a bit. After I'm finished, she hugged me, and said, "I understand your pain. But please, don't do that again." The girl said. Until I asked her name. "What's your name..?" "Y/N." She smiled. "What's yours?" "I'm.. Shuichi." I answered. Y/N hugged me once more and whispered, "Shuichi, I know how you feel. Life isn't fair. But it's not always dark. Every darkness has its own light. I believe in you. Let's be good friends, okay?" I nodded.

"Thank you.. Thank you for saving my life, Y/N."

Told u guys this is angsty
Sorry
Bye