Precious Whisper of Clarity

Chapter 1

Jonaxx and her stories are the Masterpieces. I like all. I enjoy reading and rereading them, but Costa Leona Series and Azucarera Series are my most favorite. 😊 Dedicating this Chapter to her because her settings, timelines, and plots are my inspiration.

CHAPTER 1: His Smiles

Punong puno ng galit ang mga mata ko habang tinititigan ko si Asher. Gone with the smiling face he always had in his face, mas nagging seryuso pa siya ng maguluhan siya sa sinabi ko. After many years, his family didn't tell him after all. He didn't bother to know what happened to me. I just don't feel he deserves to hear it then. My lost baby, is mine...only.

I wipe the tears that escape my eyes and leave him there. I start to walk out of that place remembering everything that happened. We had a long year, but we did not have that much time together. Ang bilis lang ng oras namin sa isa't isa. Ngunit sa bilis ng oras na iyon, lagi niyang pinagsisigawan ang nararamdaman sa akin na mahal niya ako. Masyado ba ako nagtiwala sa pakiramdam na iyon at nakalimutan kong alalahanin na di naman talaga namin maayos na nakilala ang isa't isa?

Kung gaano man kabilis ang oras namin sa isa't isa, ganun naman katagal damdamin ang lahat na hapdi na idinulot ng aming panandaliang pagsasama.

NAKATITIG ako sa makulay na araw na papalubog. Halo-halo man ang emosyong nararamdaman ko ngayon, di ko parin maiwasang mamangha sa nasasaksihan ko. "Wow. Their sunset here is very different from Jakarta."

I am at one of the resorts here near the school I'll be teaching. Kakarating ko lang nitong umaga sa Massar, a part of the big island ng Indonesia sa norte. Dito ako naasign para sa aking requite. I studied education for four years sa Universitas Memberi Harapan International. International University that gives Hope. Kilala din bilang Jakarta International University or JIU (Jee-yu) I am a scholar and in return, I will be working here in Indonesia for four more years.

I have the chance to change my destination, but I didn't question their decision like some of my classmates did. I just open that white envelope one day during our "Send-off Celebration" then fold it back when I saw the bold letters saying, "Sekolah Mendukung Harapan Massar" School that Supports Hope in Massar This is one of the outlet school ng unibersidad na pinag-aralan ko dati.

Maybe I need this change. Sabi ko sa sarili ko trying to convince myself that coming here will bring good to me. Malayo ako sa malapit kong kaibigan na si Ian who insisted on the school she wanted to go to. Lahat ng andito ay bago sa akin.

I grew up in the Philippines for 17 years with my family. We are a family of teachers. Head of school ang tatay ko, Gerardo Lopez, at Principal naman ang nanay ko, Marga Somoza-Lopez. I studied in one school back in the Philippines, then went to Indonesia when I was fresh 17. Talking about a big flip in my life, nasanay ako sa buhay na walang malaking pagbabago. Nang pumunta ako sa Indonesia para akong pitong taong gulang na nagsimula uli mula sa umpisa. Four years later in our university, nasanay nanaman ako sa konting pagbabago. Madalas ay nasa loob lang ako ng dormitory ng unibersidad namin. May mga kaonting kaibigang pinoy at banyaga. Ang mga bagay tulad ng unipormi, pagkain, mall, restaurant at paaralan ay madaling mapuntahan at magkadikit dikit lamang. Kaya siguro pakiramdam ko hanggang ngayon ay may kulang parin sa akin na gusto kong matamasa.

Ngumiti ako sa waiter ng lumapit siya sa akin dala ang order ko, "Terima Kasih pak." Thank you.