only if you knew..(zarry)

chapter:12

"you can't deny how hard I've tried"

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"You won't tell him,promise me dad."

"Ho--"

"Please, I want to spend these days with him I---i can't hurt him, I can't..."
He hiccups between his sobs full of grief and regret,why him ?why not someone else?.

Ronald holds his body in his arms and they both started crying  though they were aware that this was bound to happen one day,but now that the end is near their tears won't stop.

Ronald still remember the day when someone left  him on his orphanage door a small boy with with his big eyes and an innocent face "mummy and daddy don't like me,I'm just a burden" that was his first words and after that Ronald was his everything. His dad.

"From now on you're my son, my baby,call me dad."

He taught him everything how to bath ,how to walk without falling,though from childhood he was very clumsy "dad he push me in the dirt cause, I tried to save that cat" always the one who think about others. Everyone before me was his life motto.His harry who has the purest heart.

"When um I'll die I want you to accept zayn as your harry."

"He will be devastated but you've to hold him. you've to be strong for me, I'll always be there dad in him, we're not apart he and me is one our soul is one."

"And when I'll be gone tell him that I love him so much dad--
And he started crying and his broken heart started bleeding what he'll do without zayn, who'll hold him at night, who'll cook him his favourite pasta.

"I um do-don't want to die, dad please save me please please dad, I um I want to get married, have kids, your grandchild..
He whispered in his neck with a sad chuckle leaving his mouth. He will die without any of these things which he dreamt every-night with zayn.

Their dreams, everything is shattered just in a minute.

"Call him, I need him with me"
With that harry fainted crying for  zayn whimpering his name like a mantra.

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My zayn
and my handsome husband.

You're sleeping beside looking so gorgeous that I want to kiss you instead of writing this, but I've to . Zayn remember the first time I scold you for smoking and from that moment you're in my every dream.

I'm not a good lover cause I'm leaving you alone,
and I know you need me like I do, but zayn god fell in love with your harry. I don't have any more wish zayn this was my last one to add your name in mine and now that we're married for forever, your name will be carved on my stone and I don't want anything.

Don't cry please, don't cry I hate your tears like you hate mine. I'm leaving you with so many responsibilities and you've to take care of them, those kids they're orphan zayn and you've to be strong for them. They all have dreams in their eyes and I want you to help them to fulfill their dreams.