Hanji Zoe x Reader

A Promise Is A Promise

Request: Maybe a one shot where Hamji x fem!reader both have matching eye injuries after shiganshina and it's just soft with a lil angst and they're just taking care of each other maybe with a lil bit of protective hangi

Summary: After losing Moblit, Hanji risks losing you too.

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The darkness of the night swallows you. Your footsteps echo through the nearly empty hallways, a few familiar faces come and go, bringing light with them that doesn't last, but gladly nobody stops to talk to you.

The only thing visible for miles is the flame coming from a small lantern that rests on Hanji's table in her office. She has been cooped up there ever since you returned from Shiganshina, trying to wrap her head around everything that has happened.

Losing her eye was a constant reminder of everything else she had lost. Moblit, Erwin, she nearly lost you too. If it wasn't for Marlo, who pushed you out of the line of fire for the Beat Titan's rocks, you would have been gone along with the recruits. The scar on her face is a representation of the lives that didn't get to return.

The discovery that humanity lives outside the walls was a blow none of you saw coming. And what is more disappointing is the reason why you have been condemned to live your life like this, because of something done hundreds of years ago, something that had nothing to do with your friends or your family.

At each look in the mirror, you would see your missing right eye. Every time you had to change the gauze, the fresh scar on your face would remind you of those who you had lost in Shiganshina.

During the first couple of weeks back, you and Hanji had been inseparable. Caring for each other though neither of you had any energy left. But once she was officially nominated the Commander of the Survey Corps, something in her attitude changed.

A week has passed since the last time you laid eyes on Hanji. You have tried knocking on her door at every hour of the day in the hopes of eventually getting her to open up to you but no such thing happened.

Instead, the only person who was allowed in the Commander's office was Levi. From the outside, you could hear as they argued.

"You have to stop pushing Y/N away." He says and you begin to hear rushed footsteps towards the door. Your first reaction is to hide at the end of the hallway, behind a large vase with green plants potted. "This is hurting the both of you. Put an end to your own misery."

The hand opening the door didn't belong to Levi but to the other person present in the room. "Leave my office. Now." She says, voice echoing through the nearly empty hallway.

"You are just pitying yourself." The man says, stomping towards the exit. His words earned a shriek from Hanji in response, who immediately slammed the door shut once Levi had made his way out.

In the silence of the night, the crashing sound that comes from her office is incredibly loud. You can hear the table being flipped and papers that once rested above the wooden surface now being thrown around.

Hanji's voice comes from the small room, her words are mumbled under her breath so you can't quite make up what she is trying to say but after a few seconds the word fuck filled the atmosphere around you as she screams from the top of her lungs.

Worried, you knock on the door gently only to find Hanji on the floor, her knees close to her chest while her head is buried. She barely looks up to see who it is and part of you feels as if she already knew.

"Are you ok?" You ask in a hushed tone, slowly closing the door behind you. "I mean, I know that is a stupid question but... are you?"

"Please, go away." She says, her voice trembles as she raises her head to look at you. "Leave me alone."