Selfish

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Joong ki POV
My blood went cold.
I turned to leave when he held my hand.
'Hyung....what are you hiding?'
'Nothing...'
'You said I'm your little brother...'
'You're like my little brother and Ji hye's like my little sister. I've been with ya'll for so long that instead of friends or colleagues, you've become my family.'
'You're lying...'
'Why do you think so?' I turned back and looked at him.
'If that was the reason, your expression wouldn't change. That day when I was unconscious and you came to meet me, you called me your little brother back then too...'
My face turned as pale as snow.
Shit....he heard it back then too?
I took a deep breath.
'Jimin-ah.....if you think I'm lying, then I probably don't want to talk about that right? Don't ask me again...', I said while I freed my hand and started leaving.
I could hear him call out my name, but I didn't stop.
What if he hates mom after he finds out?
What if he hates me?
Cause I'm an illegitimate child,
of his mom and some other man.
How will he accept me?
And Ji hye?
How will she react when she finds out?
She'd hate me more than Jimin will.
If you asked me how I felt about this truth before, I probably wouldn't care.
But now....I've got things to lose.
I've got my little brother and little sister to lose.
They'll hate mom.
I can't let that happen.
I can't let them hate us.
I love them.....and so does mom.
We've lost too many people already.
We can't lose them.
I'm sorry for lying....but the truth is disgusting.
I don't think I'll be able to bear seeing their disgusted expressions when they find out.

Jimin POV
He's lying....
I have to find out what's hurting him.
'Hyung...you've always been by my side. You've helped me and guided me. You're the reason I'm standing here right now. You keep me going.
How can I not interfere? How can I not want to find out what's hurting you so bad?'
'Jimin-ah...' I heard a voice behind me and felt a hand on my shoulder.
I turned to see Jennie.
'Jennie-ah...hyung...'
'I know....you said it out loud....'
'Ohhhh...' I said not realising.
'If he's hiding it from you....maybe you're the one person he doesn't want to tell this too....'
'That's not the point Jennie-ah....his expression wasn't the one to keep a secret. He looked sad. For a second...when he told me that I'm his little brother....it felt like he finally let go. Then he stiffened again.'
'But you ARE like his little brother right? He considers you one. Maybe he said it in that way...'
'No....you remember when i was unconscious and Joong ki hyung came to meet me?'
'What about that?'
'He kept apologising....he kept saying sorry for not being able to protect me. He called me his little brother...and he said he'll be there when I'm ready. I had started to gain consciousness just before he started talking. And the way he went pale when I mentioned it right now....it's not normal Jennie-ah...'
'If you're so keen on finding out, then I'll help you...'
'No it's okay.....I'll do it....you've already helped me so much. I can't even-'
'Shhhhh...if you say those kind of things, we won't even be friends anymore. We'll do this together Jimin-ah.....I'll always be with you...', she said and rubbed my hand.
She smiled at me.
Does she still like me?
Cause.....I may be falling for her...
She doesn't give butterflies....she makes me feel at home.
And that's the kind of girl you wanna spend your life with right?
Everyday was a new day, a new challenge with y/n.....
But life feels stable with Jennie.
Y/N was someone you can fall in love with.
But Jennie....she's someone who you can love and live with all your life....
After this is over....I think I'll give her a proper chance. I'll ask her out on a date.
She waved her hand in front of my face.
'What are you thinking about?'
'Nothing...' I said and shook my head.
She made a weird face and said,
'Go sleep now.....tomorrow's the day you've been waiting for right?'
I nodded my head and smiled.
She smiled back and said,
'Best of luck...'
'Thank you....'
I'll finally go public tomorrow.
Ji-hye and mom......
I'll finally meet them tomorrow...

Y/N POV
'Y/N what were you thinking? Are you crazy? When we've told you not to use that dumb little brain of yours too much, why are you so hell bent on hurting yourself?'
'Ya'll are lying to me!' I yelled back.
'No we aren't! Jimin died! Accept that! And move on!'
He said.
I was about to say something but he shushed me.
'Shhhhh....not ONE single word I want to hear. You are not going to ask anymore questions! And I'm not going to tolerate your childish behaviour! For god sake y/n grow up. Stop living in your shell and step out. You're not the only one that's hurting.....there are others too....and if you can't see that, then at least don't add to their suffering!' He yelled and left.
For a few seconds I couldn't speak.
Then I realised.....
Yoongi loved him more than I did....
He must be hurting too.
Because of me bringing him up again and again.....I am hurting him as well.
He's right.....I've been too selfish....
I'll live a better life from tomorrow.
(A/N: me every day 🙄😫)


Hello dear readers!!!
Well y/n wants to live a better life from tomorrow, and Jimin wants to ask Jennie out on a date.
But do you think it'll happen, when these 2 cross each other again?

Dayummm that sounds dramatic but I've always wanted to write that so lol hehe 😂😝

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