safe spider

white rose

No matter how hard I tried nothing ever worked.

"I'm only doing this beacuse I love you." Mother sneered with her harsh eyes.

I didnt say a word I just stood there. i didnt care for thoose words anymore she has used them all the time she didnt actually love me she only said that to cover up the deep truth that lays beetween our 'mother daughter relationship'

I learned from a young age not to disrespect the hand that feeds you the first time I've ever done that was when I was around 5 years old I remember my mother sent me to room to clean and sense I was a immature 5 year old of course I didnt clean I was to busy playing with the nail polish I found behind my pile of books that I never read. While I was painting eveything with the glittering purple nail polish my mother stromed into the room.

I put the nail polish down and looked up at my mother her face looked like she was about to have all the veins in her face explode she was clenching her fists that it looked like she was death griping the air. I stood there for a moment not exactly sure what to do I waited for what seemed like century's.

"What the fuck is wrong with you!?" She screamed into my face

I stood there with a few tears falling out of the corners of my eyes as my hands started shaking from the harsh words mother screamed at me

"I told you to clean your room not destroy it! Where did you even get that?" She screeched into my face causing me to flinch

"This is not what I told you to do nor what I want you to do!" She screamed untill her face was almost as red as fire

After she was done with her words of hatred and disappointment she grabed my arm and dangled me in the air by only my arm she started smacking me untill I cried tears of pure regretfullness.

When she was done she dropped me and stromed out the room leaveing me sobbing on the ground my head hurt so much from crying and my tears felt like they were burning.

She did all of that because I played with nail polish after that incident I didnt even think about touching nail polish for a year.

"Go do the laundry" mother said stareing at her phone

"okay." I softly said trying to not anger her

i wallked down the dirty stairs to the basement I started to take piles of clothes and shove them into the washer untill my little sister kishi came down stairs to criticize my work on Laundry "why are you folding them that way?" She asked giveing me a disgusting face "I dont know" I replied back trying to get my job done

"Why even do the laundry if your gonna not even fold the clothes right!? Are you a fucking idioit? Do you actually not know how to do Landry?" She screamed

"I'm sorry but maybe instead of fucking criticizing eveything I do maybe show me how you want your clothes folded or do them yourslef." I screamed back tired of her bullshit

I heard foot steps coming downstairs I recognized them...

"Shit Shit Shit Shit Shit Shit Shit Shit" I repeated over and over again in my head I knew I was in deep trouble now for screaming at kishi, kishi is mother's favorite child in her eyes kishi cant do anything wrong. Kishi knows it to she knows she can do anything and wont get in trouble I hate that bitch as much as I hate mother

"Are you serious? You make me wallk all the way down here for this!? You cant even fold clothes right!" Mother roared "what are you even good for if you cant even do one simple task I ask of you?" Mother screeched into my ears

"I'm sorry I didnt know how she wanted them folded..." I said sheepishly "you've lived in this house your whole life with me and your siblings and you dont know how to fold the landry the way kishi likes it!?" Mother screamed at me acting like I was dumb