Loneliness is not a lack of company, it is a lack of purpose. I have been alone most of my life, although i hang out with friends every now and then. And i still have feelings and emotions outside my shell. I still feel empty and alone inside this skin. It's like i have this socialising energy bar within me, it gets depleted everytime i socialise with others. The feelings that i conjure, the emotions that i show, all of them show up when socialising. It's like magic, suddenly having the skill to show emotions, suddenly having the skill to be another person. But like magic, it will all burn out and will have to recharge. Despite knowing this, i still like hanging out with friends. I know it's contradicting, acting like an extrovert even though I'm an introvert. Acting like someone even though i am no one, but if I'm something, i could never be nothing. I am that something, i am that someone that is confused about who they are, someone who is confused about who they're supposed to be, who they want to be. Since i will be going to another school in senior high school, i won't know anyone, and no one will know me. So i have decided, i will change for the better. I, Lonnie am ready to be free. No more shell, no more masks, and no more being anyone else, i will just be the gentle and free Lonnie. Tomorrow is the day i will be me!
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Lonnie
PertualanganLonnie is an introvert who acts like an extrovert, for most of his life he doesn't know who he is, what he's supposed to be, and what he wants to be. He usually wears someone else's face when socialising but when transferring to another school where...
