lately I don't really know how I feel.
I think this is pretty insane, how fast my "state" changes.
At one time, I am the most logical person ever. Then on the other time, I cry over little things. Then there are times like this, where I feel confused, not really knowing what is going on.
I feel lost, and I don't know what am I supposed to do, think, or even feel.
this is not numb either, just confused.
I guess I have dealt with this before, and just went with the flow, because I damn well knew this situation is completely temporary, that I will change eventually.
I will eventually be happy again, and maybe I will be sensitive, again.
just like the wheel that keeps on spinning, and so does my state.
it felt weird, I'm not really fond of this.
I wish I could stay in the state where I am the most logical and happy woman, because this state doesn't really cost too much of feelings, energy, not even a drop of tear.
I am not fond of feeling confused. I am also not fond of feeling lost.
I guess I need to write some things down, but for now, all I need is just an afternoon nap.
Friday, September 03rd, 2021.
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911
Poesiai journal when my feelings starts to get me drowned in it. but a thousand words won't be enough to let it out. so to make it short, poetry came by and gave me some words to get things out of my chest. almost like my 911 calls, helping me to stay san...
