Bully in Love // Chensung

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Metion of rape❗

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Jisung is so mad at himself that he just needs a short break and distance from the guys. He can't watch him blame his friends for not being happy just because he has a problem with their lovers. Sure the problem is not exactly small and also not understandable, but in the end...

"Am I just an Omega ..."

Jisung goes to the roof to get a clear mind. He takes several deep breaths in and out. He tries to calm down, but somehow he can't switch off completely. He leans against a wall and continues to try to calm his racing heart. Jisung tries to distract himself, but only ends up with painful thoughts.

He's got memories of how Chenle hit him, really beaten him up.
How his friends just stood by and did nothing.
Memories from his father of how he did it himself only got worse. And his mother just stood by and cried.
It hurts to be so helpless. He can't go on, but he can't end it either.

Yes... Jisung has tried to take his own life several times because he no longer sees any sense in it, but he never could.
Once he was standing on a bridge, but he couldn't take the last step forward to finish, something was holding him back. Another time he wanted to stick the knife in his heart when his parents were out, but he couldn't bring himself to leave his mum alone with this terrible monster, so he dropped the knife.

Jisung is now sitting on the floor crying. He thinks of the pain he has suffered just because he is an omega.
"Being an Omega is terrible..."
He thinks of his mother, whom he loves, but he doesn't feel it from her.
"Am I still important to her ...?"
He thinks of Chenle who must hate him very much to do such things.
"What did I ever do to you ...?"
He thinks of his friends and their loved ones.
"You will be happy... I won't take this away from you."
He thinks of Chenle's friends who don't help him.
"Why...?"

Now Jisung is sitting on the floor and crying very badly. He can no longer suppress the pain and has to let it out. He would like to scream, but then he would be noticed. So he cries for a few minutes, he gets a little tired and also forgets the time. Suddenly he feels a vibrate in his pocket. He sits up and takes out his cell phone. He looks at his display and he doesn't like the name that appears there.

"H-Hello father." His father called him and doesn't sound very happy. Jisung can already hear the angry shudder.
"Imagine. I just got a call from school and found out that you weren't at school... Where are you!" Jisung's father gets louder and louder over the sentence until he finally screams. In the background he can hear his mother whining.
"I-I am in school, ex-", but before Jisung can tell him the reason, the father yells at him again.

"I don't want to hear your stupid lies anymore. Come home immediately. Your punishment is waiting for you," he says and then hangs up. Jisung takes a deep breath and puts away his cell phone with trembling hands. Then he looks up one last time.
"One day..." he just says and then goes downstairs.

Meanwhile the class is over and the students are all going home, but Jisung just hopes that he doesn't meet any of his friends or even worse Chenle's friends or the bully himself. Jisung sneaks out of the exit and avoids the bus stops at all costs, because his friends are usually there to wait for each other. Jisung just walks in the other direction and then makes his way home as quickly as he can. On the way he thinks about how his father will punish him this time. Maybe the belt or the whip. Maybe Jisung will have to serve as a punching bag again.

Jisung takes a deep breath and then stands in front of his door. He thinks about it for a moment and then opens it. He smells old garbage from the kitchen and stinking alcohol bottles lying around half full everywhere. The kitchen and living room really look like a messie apartment. "Jisung," he then hears his father's stern and terrible voice.
"F-Father ..." whispers Jisubg and then looks at his father.

"You're late, that only makes your punishment worse but more fun for me. You will call me Sir for the next three hours, do you understand?"
His father asks him while he is walking towards him. Jisung doesn't understand what the next three hours will be, but he doesn't complain, because he is scared.
"Words ... baby," Jisung's father whispers in his ear, and that scares Jisung.

He doesn't know exactly what is happening, but he can imagine. Jisung's father always talks to his mother like that when he... well... rapes her.
"Your mother is slowly getting bored. She no longer defends herself and lies in bed as if she were dead. Disgusting... but you are young, fresh and still loud," says Jisung's father and then pinches the boy's bottom.

Now Jisung is sure what is happening and tries to fight back.
"Hahaha... the harder you make it for me, the hornier I get," says Jisung's father and then gets on with Jisung. Jisung tries everything to fight back, but he is weak and cannot do anything against the Alpha.
He just lets it go.