I hate that I love you

Chapter 4

Louis' POV

After listening to the song, Y/n and I didn't talk much. We sat there listening to her playlist and she was reading her book at the same time. I sat beside her thinking. Mostly about her .I mean, I really want to ask her out or hang out with her, something at least.

But I could never ask her to even hangout because she hates me, and I would just embarrass myself. Not to mention I don't think her parents would approve of her hanging out with me, I'm pretty sure they think I'm a bad influence.
I don't quite know why though.

As I sat there drowning in my own thoughts I saw Y/n check her phone and then rush to get back up to her feet.

"Oh shit, I'm gonna be late!" She as she puts her things in her bag. I give her her AirPod back and she puts it in the case.
Then she starts rushing down the the cliff into the forest.

"Y/n wait up!" I yell for her to stop.
I didn't want her to walk back home alone, she could get hurt or something.

"What Louis?" She yells back.
I run down as quickly as I can to catch up with her, I accidentally run into her, knocking her down.

"OW LOUIS! WHAT THE FUCK?" She screams.
I felt so bad I kind of panicked. I definitely did not mean to do that.

"Shit, Y/n oh my gosh, I'm so sorry! I did not mean to do that. Here," I put my hand out for her to help her get up, and she took it.
I was kind of surprised she did. Her hand was so soft I wish I could hold it forever.
But as soon as she got up she took her hand back.

"I mean I just, I was running down and-" Then she cuts me off.

"Okay, okay. Louis it's fine." She still seem a little pissed but I kept walking with her.

"Are you, okay?" I asked to her wanting to make sure she didn't get hurt.

"Yeah I um, I'm fine." She answered me while looking down as she walked.

"Why are you walking with me?" She asked.
I didn't really know what to say. I don't want her to think that I care about her too much. That sounds selfish but I don't want to embarrass myself since she hates me.

"I uh, it's getting late and I'm going home too and there's only one way home so I guess I have to walk with you." As I said that she was still looking at the ground. She seemed a bit disappointed with what I said, so I continued talking and I told her the truth.

"And well, it's a long walk and I wouldn't want you to walk all alone in the dark, something could happen." She seemed to smile to herself when I said that, maybe she doesn't hate me after all, no what am I thinking of course she does.

For the next ten minutes we walked in complete silence.

"Judy joked about you having a boyfriend in the car today." I said trying to make the awkward silence go away.

She chuckled,
"Haha, did you believe her?" She asked.

Without thinking I said,
"Well of course I did."

"What? Why would you even believe that?"
She asked me.

"Well uh, you know, um because," I stumbled on my words. I didn't know if I should tell her what I wanted to say or not, but then I did,

"You know, you're really pretty," I muttered, and then continued,

"and kind, why wouldn't you have a boyfriend?"

I smiled to myself knowing I just told her what I really thought about why I believed Judy.
But then I instantly regret what I said,
"Oh no, ignore what I just said."

"Oh. Okay" she seemed a little sad.

"I think I can walk alone now, don't you think?"

"Oh, I don't know. What if something happens?" I look down.

But then when I looked up she was already about fifteen meters away from me. Oh god. I just ruined everything, haven't I? Why did I say that? It was completely stupid of me, she definitely hates me now, a 100%. I ruined everything.

"Y/N WHERE ARE YOU GOING?" I yelled as I tried to catch up with her. I never wanted her to runaway, I was enjoying her company. But I made her runaway.

I tried to catch up to her but I couldn't find her. I kept running until I got to her lake house. She wasn't there but I heard a slam. I'm guessing that was her.
I walked a couple more minutes til I made it to my house.

"Louis, finally! There you are" My mom said as I walked past her going up to my room.

"Louis, where are you going? You missed dinner, come have something to eat, love."

"No thanks mum I'm fine, I'm just gonna go to bed I'm tired."
I lied as I walked up the stairs.

"Louis what happened you're as red as a tomato!" Judy said when she saw me upstairs.

"What, I- nothing happened." I said sternly.

When I finally made it to my room I was going to text Y/n to make sure she was alright, but I realized I didn't have her number since we were never friends. I thought of going to ask Judy but that would be suspicious and I don't want to answer any of her stupid questions, so I text Elijah, Y/n's older brother instead.
I have his number because sometimes last summer we played video games together.

...

Me:
Did Y/n make it home?
We walked together but then she ran away,
Is she okay?

Elijah:
Ooo does someone have a crush?
Sounds like you care about her

Me:
What? No! I don't have a crush on her, I just wanted to know if she got home.

Elijah:
Yeah she's fine

...

Thank fully Elijah said she was fine, which probably meant she made it home.
But he thinks I have a crush, did I make it obvious?? Plus are people not allowed to care about someone without having a crush on them. But I do have a crush on Y/n, and I care about her. And I regret what I said.

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