Regrets

Chapter one

I woke up hella early this morning, why I do not not know. It musta been like 6:30 aswell, yeah so got outta bed went bathroom had 20min shower did my morning stuff like brush my teeth etc. If ur clean uno da drill. Den i put my uniform on TBH i don't even have time for the whole full face of make up like thats effort and im going school who am i impressing and it's not like i acc need make up, in put my hair in a bun and when I had my uniform and dat on i knocked on Tishawns door to see if he was coming school today (he's year 12) he was half asleep buh he said yh he's coming buh he's gonna take time so i left him in his room went down stairs,drank tea and pinged Melissa and patrice to see if they were ready so we could route. Dey replied & said i should meet them at 468 bus stop now,so i aired and got my bag and dat said bye to everyone and left.

*At bus stop*
Patrice: ur looking spicy today did you get man or something.
Me: Fanks buh is ih everyday man.
Melissa: Word! Anywayz speaking of man isn't dat tyrone across da road preeing you.
Me: argh dis boy jarrz me man, he decided to dump me cahh i was too quiet so why he always tryna get bak wid me.

*flash back scene*
Tyrone: basically babes I've been talking to another girl for like two weeks and im kinda feeling her negl
Me: so what about us
Tyrone: I think its time to end that cuz your too quiet and plain man
Me: we've been dealing for like 4weeks im not gonna go all out am i
Tyrone: yh buhh still anywayZ its game over for now bye babes
Me: fuck u bye, your gonna be back in time ,(remember they always come back).

*Back to the present*
Tyrone ( dark brown, wavy hair, Jamaican, Tall)
Patrice: he obvz still loves you man anywayz shut up and play kl cuz he's coming over
Tyrone: what you saying TT
Me: i beg you exit my presence. look how long we broke up man
Melissa: TT why you gwarning like dat for man its bait you still have feelings for him and he obvz still likes you.
Tyrone: I know I've made my mistakes but you have to forgive me man you can't hold grudges
Me: bruv you cheated on me with next gyal and your excuse was I'm to shy and now when ur begging for forgiveness im supposed to jump and say yh i forgive you babes, boy bye.
*bus came i acc couldn't be asked to be around tyrone or the girls so i just jumped on the bus and went up stairs*
God knows tyrone acc just vexed me uno. who dafuq does he fink he is about i should forgive him this bumboclart fuck boi best stay away from me cuz ill acc get mad😕😐

*10mins later*
Finally arrived outside school
(st.. Anderson's high) and as soon as i entered i saw the rest of the squad (Karena&&Asha) they were baree creasing and laughing and dat so i obvz wanted to know so i asked dem what was gwarning.
Karena: some boys from lambeth are having a ravee & its duee to bee maud raves gonna be tomoz
Asha: are you gonna routee TT
Me: yhh
Asha: tell trinx (Tishawn) to come
Me: argh tell him yourself man look how long you've known him why u moving shyy
Asha: shut up man😤
* laughed &carried on convo den the bell rang🔔*

Me: innah bih you lot imma go form see you lot first period
Asha: me && patrice are skipping form dhas effort
Patrice: Yhh man Ms. Klumpz is jarring
Melissa: I've got assembly so innah bih
Karena:imma go form so innah bih
*we all sed bye den cut*

As i was walking to the english block i saw Darnell ( brothers friend peng browning tall buff eyes etc.)
Darnell: wag 1 TT is Trinx routing today
Me: yeah
Darnell: ite den innah bih babez

Darnell P.O.V
I know TT is trinx' lil sister buh I'm negl she is one plenggg gyal,I've been feeling her for tym buh ih mite be weird me dealing her cuz Tinx is baree over protective over his lil sis and I don't wanna ruin our friendship, buh at the same time TT is isn't a baby and she can make her own decisions and shes only a year younger dan me so its not like its a tyga and kylie ting.

Back to Tierra
This might sound weird buh I feel like Darnell is kinda feeling me still buh i wouldn't deal him he is 1 peng ting😍😍😍 buh he's like a big brother man. As soon as i reach to form I hear sharleshaa and her big mouth bruvv this dis girl can chat and she lovee spread her business ,hear her to the the youngas " neva let a boy wid crawny nails touch up your clit no matter how much he's paying you, i learned dat from year 9" bruv sharleshaa is the biggest sket in croydon fam shes done it all; give heads✔️, lick out pum pum✔️, eat batty like its chocolate✔️🍫, And moree..
Im negl shes a calm girl buh she just too rass nastyyy fam.
Sharleshaa: hey TT wats popping
Me: nmr wag1 wid u
Sharleshaa: tryna get one of them year 12s to beat but dey dont wanna pay they must think this is a sponsered charity "sharleshaa's pussy trust fund"
Me: Im dead your a joker 😂😂😂
Sharleshaa: ik i make my self laugh buh im a fucking mess right now my bitch of a mother kicked me out cuz she found me and her man beating shes acting like dhe dint know me and him do a lil ting kmt
Me: u and her man beat😱😨😶 dhas a semi deep
Sharleshaa; she let me come back in doe
Me: your one lucky bitch 😬
*🔔🔔🔔🔔🔔*

Me: innah bih gotta go
Sharleshaa: innah bih babez
*went to go meet the girls for maths*

After school me the girls, Tishawn and Darnell && a couple of the BMG mandem routed to Darnell's yard.
It was like our tradition we went Darnell's yard every 2weeks cuz he had free yard buh we only went if BMG didnt have things to take care of. we jumped on the bus and went Darnell's obvz i had to call my mum and tell her we were gonna route and that we/I would be home at an alrite time. she told me to pass the phone to Tishawn, I fink she was tellimg him ti look after me and be careful Tishawn was answering my mum in some next little mamas boi voice and dhat den mum hung up the phone.
* Reached Darnell's yard*
As soon as the door opened the first thing i did was plug my phone in the speakers and played my big tuneee fall in love by poocaan I was so gassed my tunee started to play 🎶ah wah mek you ah whine up pon mi suh gyal mi fall in lovee mi will buy you ah ticket to Barbados gyal mi fall in loveee 🎶 i obvz didn't get up and whine cuz Tishawn woulda boxed me down same time so i just chilled and moved a lil bih. The vybz was calm buh as soon as i get up to go toilet pancake and her stink self walks in.
Pancake: wheres my man
Me: i beg you address me properly bout wheres your man ayy rank gyal DPMO
Pancake: I can talk to you anyway I want to
Me: Dutty bitch i beg you grew a batty and exit my presence
Pancake: dont get bright little girl
Me: * got my hand in a nice position to box her*
Tishawn walks out and stops me
Pancake:*smirks*
Me:*screw*
She goes living room and i go upstairs to piss
2mins later
*I come downstairs*
Mandem and dem lot are all in the kitchen and its barre silent music is turned down and i hear my brothers voice he's sounding like he's about to get mad in da living room so i go inside to see whats happening
Me: Tishawn whats happening
Tishawn: sharzz is 6moths pregnant and I'm the father
Me: weh di raaasss yah seh to mi ( what the hell are you saying to me)
* I was getting madd so i just got my stuff and walked out*
I changed my pm to: Vexed N'R😡😡😤
The girls pinged me to see if i was calm buh i just aired tbh i acc cba to chat to no 1

Pancakes P.O.V
This whole thing is hella messy I'm gonna die when people find out the baby acc isn't trinx' as much as j want to be his it just isn't 😭😭😭😪 i wish i just told him the truth than making him believe that the baby is his i have to make things right before ihs too latee......

Back to Tierra
When I reach home its another real life soap opera i find my mum on the kitchen floor crying her eyes out with blood dripping all over and my dad is there shouting"dead dutty woman your a wokless bitch"
Me:Wait hold up wait a minute, if the woman who has stood by you for 20 years who has provided for you looked after your 2 children while working as a lawyer and who helped got your papers no scratch dat who got you ur papers if shes wokless what are you? My dad pushed me on the floor stepped in my belly and boxed me hard but before he could do more damage Tishawn ran in and banged him hard and fucked my dad up so badly then he called the ambulance for my mum cuz she was getting unconscious because she was losing bare blood i got a kitchen towel and held ih where she was bleeding. for the first time in NHS history the ambulance came hella fast and my mum was taken care of.
My mum had to get some blood back buh she recovered just in time mum spent the night in hospital but me and Tishawn went home to clean up and make sure everything is ready for mum
Tishawn: i cant believe dad hit mum because she confronted him on getting his P.A pregnant
Me: i cant believe she didn't press charges whys she moving like dhat
Tishawn: cuz mums soft
Me: truu, so how u feeling that pancake is pregnant
Tishawn : negl lil sis i dont feel like its mine
Me:thats cuz its not urs
Tishwan: how you know
Me: i just do
Tishawn: i dnt even have time for a baby right now I've got bareee things to deal wid in BMG and i have to sort out my school work and dhat
Me:truu well tell her how you feel buh if its yours mum needs to know
Tishawn: yh fankz for the talk lil sis imma see what darnell thinks then imma make a move to sharzz
Me:kl

*Mum comes through the door*
Mum: im home loveis
Me: hey mum are you alright
Tishawn: you alrite mumzie
Mum: yepp im great the doctors said i recovered rapidly and I'm fine your dad is coming in with the my medication
Me:Ermm😬 what did u say mum?
Mum:yepp im great the doctors said i recovered rapidly and I'm fine your dad is coming in with the my medication
Me: i think i heard wrong dif u say dads coming in as in the man who nearly beat you to death is stepping back inside this house
Mum: yes he came to the hospital after the police questioned him and he said he sorry and he didn't mean a word he said and he apologised for hitting me
And i forgave him
Me:mum aree u serious (tears acc started pouring from my eyes and i couldn't stop them) i ran up stairs to my room and played music to get my mind off things and didn't come back downstairs until the next day ( the day of the ravee)