Cold Winds

8

Kat and Henry have been coming by at every chance they can this past two weeks. And the doctors have been closely monitoring me. I've had a few more bad pains but nothing we haven't solved with medication. But apparently they're concerned about something. They ask me every day if I feel any movement, but I tell them no I don't. I'm not lying, really after the first couple days of being in the hospital I've stopped feeling it kicking. When I was first in, the kicks were strong, but got less and less as time progressed. It gives me the spooks too but doctor Oxfordshire told me it's probably just that the baby is getting ready to come out, thus causing it to stop moving while it shifts into the birthing position. It doesn't seem like too big of an issue to me really. It helps me get more sleep, and from what they can tell, nothing is wrong. Although it is a bit harder to tell with males from what I'm told. The heartbeat is a bit more muffled than others so they can't tell if it's on the stronger side or the weaker side most of the time.

I've also gotten a couple of visits from Berwald, and of course the boys. Tino is still off in Finland, apparently the situation got worse and he had to stay a lot longer than he had expected to. I feel bad for him, but at the same time, he's finally away from his parenting duties. I know he's probably at least happy about that. Peter keeps telling me the house feels really empty without Mathias and I in it, and Lukas since he usually comes to the hospital straight after work. They leave when visitor hours close but they're there first thing in the morning.

Mathias mostly spends the day with me when he isn't doing work to get the field ready for this summer. He brings me in some new movies to put on the TV since I have nothing better to do while I'm in here. Although my back has really been hurting today and Lukas said he's going to get here a little late due to showing a house further away than he usually would. And Mathias is working outside all day with the help of Berwald while the boys are at school.

I'm watching the cars out the window when my phone starts ringing. I look over and see Toni's caller ID, picking up and putting the phone to my ear. "Hey Emil! I've been meaning to call you but you know, I got busy! Lukas told you you're in the hospital! How are you feeling?"

I smile a bit and get comfortable in the bed, at least as best I can. "Well, it's really boring. I'm not allowed out of my bed, food sucks. But I guess it's alright. It's quieter than the house. Although my back has hurt like hell since I woke up this morning.." I can't help but complain about things.

Tino whistles a bit and chuckles. "You know I wasn't in the hospital for very long before having Isak! I actually avoided it until I went into labour! Trust me, that's the worst part! Contractions are horrible! You know, I was in labour for eighteen hours, and I didn't have to deal with giving birth but if you decide to do it I can assure you it's probably worse than a caesarean!" Well that makes me feel a lot better. Because I do plan on trying to give birth, but if it doesn't work out I'll have to do an emergency caesarean.

I rub my back and let out a small sigh. "Well, thanks for the advice I guess." I say and Tino tells me a couple of more things. Easy ways to try and ease contractions, stuff like that. We don't talk for long before I put my phone away and decide to take a nap.

Instead though, I'm met with worse pains in my back. Itty a bunch of different sitting positions but I can't find anything good. So I decide that a nap isn't worth the effort. As I'm picking up my phone doctor Oxfordshire walks in with a small smile. "Good morning Emil!" She says with a small smile. "How are we feeling today?"

I just groan and throw my head back into my pillow. "My back hurts." I tell her. She nods and writes it down on her clipboard. She asks me more questions, it's the same thing every day. But as she's going to leave the room, I feel a sharp pain in my stomach. I wince and she turns around. She walks back over. The pain doesn't go away and I sink into my pillows, clenching my teeth. "Oh dear god.." I breathe out once the pain fades away.