The Way My Life Sucks

Chapter 5

I fell alseep in the bathroom that night. I awoke to my mother shaking me furiously.

"Joanna! Wake up!" She said. "Please honey wake up." She was still shaking me. I woke up.

"What happened?" i asked groggily and confused. i didnt remember anything from last night.

"You fell asleep in the bathroom after you...cut...." My mom said, she looked like she was on the verge of tears. "I picked you up after your date with Peter last night. You were really upset."

"oh" was all i could spit out. I feel so bad for putting my mother through what i had done.

"I dont want to you to go to school the rest of the week. You need to get better." Even i couldn't argue. I didnt want to go back to school. Where all my problems were. I took a hot bath and looked at my scarred arm. I got dressed in my pj's and had sweet oatmeal. I went into my room and fell asleep.

Mom, its only 3:00. Why are you bringing me dinner?" I asked confused.

"Honey its 5:30" Had i really slept for that long. I was asleep for 5 1/2 hours. She handed me a bowl of chicken noodle soup.

"thanks mom." i said looking at my soup. Gosh it was so beautiful, i love soup more than anything.

"You welcome sweetie." she looked at me with her kind brown eyes and kissed my forehead.

The next day my mom made me see the crazy Dr. Connors again.

"hello Joanna, how have you been lately?"

"fine." i said very dull.

"Your mother told me you were self-harming again."

"yeah...so?" i asked stupidly.

"It's a big deal. If you bleed long enough like you had done last night you could have died." I stared at him with a blank expression. Gosh he had changed so much since i last saw him like 2 months ago. He had flakey scales on his neck and cheeks. And he looked tired. Poor doctor i actually give him sympathy, he only has one arm.

"What happened to your face?'

"Oh nothing. Im sorry this therapy session is over." He kicked me out of the room and locked the door. I saw my mom look at me with confused eyes.

"Honey what happened?"

"I dont know we were just talkng and he said the session was over." I explained.

"hmm....thats weird. Anyway lets go home." she wrapped her motherly arm around me and we went home.