Let me respawn (Discontinued)

𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛 2

It is now Monday morning and i wake up with red eyes and heavy bags under them, caused from the past late nights of crying. Yesterday night i tried jumping off the roof again but got saved by spiderman again. I played it off but this time he was more suspicious but he rolled it off his shoulder.

I get ready and walk to school. I arrive and its a regular day. Its now lunch time. I walk into the cafeteria and grab a tray of food before finding a lonely table and sitting down at it. I pick up the only decent looking thing, a apple, and start biting into it.

Wow... this school needs better food. I look around the room, looking at groups of people chatting. Fuck all of yall. why, cause why not. My eyes then land on a boy that is in some of my classes. Peter isn't it. He is pretty smart isn't he. Well then fuck you for being a smart ass. My eyes then look at his shirt and see that there is another science pun on it. Why does he always have science puns. I mean some are cute and some are cringy. But who cares. My eyes then go back to his face, but widen at the sight of peter looking back at me curiously. My cheeks glow red and my body stiffens up. holy shit-. I quickly put my head down, avoiding the gaze of peter.

Why the fuck is he looking at me. Oh my lawd. I then lift my head up but instantly put it down again after seeing peter still looking at me but with a even more curious look now. Oh my gawwddd!! Why is he looking at me. Bitch stop looking. I mean who cares, but i kinda care. Like why are you looking. I then lift my head once again and let a big deep breath when i see peter isn't looking. Sheesh, why were u looking. But I was looking at him first soo... But that doesn't matter. No one notices me, not even losers like you. No offense. But i guess you're a cute smart loser, so go you. Actually, now that i think about it. He is pretty good looking, and he has nice body structure. Wait what am i thinking, who cares.

The day then continues and its finally time to go home. While walking to my apartment i think about killing myself. If jumping off a roof doesn't work, i'm gonna have to switch it up. But what is a painless way and quick way...... Maybe shooting myself, but i need a gun. I definitely wont hang myself, too long. Getting hit by a car.... Rachel died in a car crash.... Well.... If it worked for her.... M-might work for me.

After that i stopped my journey home and walked down a different path. I started looking for a real busy road and once found one, i sat down on a nearby bench.

I check the time on my phone and see '4:12pm'. Righty then, we wanted to do it, so lets do it. I then look around at the cars driving by. Will they be fast enough to run me over. What if i don't die, it will be embarrassing. What if its painful, wait if i get put into a coma. Should i write a note to let people know i wanna die.... No no no that's embarrassing. I'll just let what happens happens..... Right. I then get up from my seat and approach to road. Looking left and right i see no cars in sight. Well where da fuc they at. I then let out a disappointed sigh until i see a bright red truck coming. Finally. Now i better not chicken out. Just let it go over you. It will be quick..... Right.

I'm now there standing, head empty and heart racing. I wait until the truck is nearly in front of me and then BAM! I leap in front of it, eyes closed and hope for death. Loud honks are screeched and tires skidding to stop squeal. My body then feels like it is being squeezed. I then feel a rough yet light breeze run throughout the surface of my body. And then it feels like my body is being hugged while rolling. Is this what death is like. Kinda weird, but i guess its expected for getting hit by a car. I then let my eyes flutter open but get shocked by seeing the mask of spiderman. OH DEAR GOODDDDDD. NOT AGIAN!!!

We are currently in the position of me on top of him and him underneath me, with his arms wrapped around my back. My eyes widen before falling to a annoyed look. I look to my left and see the red truck halted with tire marks right behind it. By accident i let out a disappointed sigh before looking back in front of me and seeing spiderman again.

"O-oh uh, thanks spiderman" i say giving him a fake ass smile while trying to get up from him but his grip being to hard so i just fall back on him. "o-oh yeah.. uh your welcome". He says finally dropping his arms and slowly getting up himself. I dust myself off before realizing spiderman is still standing before me. "oh- um... I'm lucky you were there for me again, i don't know why i'm so unlucky". FOR REALL THOO!! Why cant i just die, bitch got bad luck in a good way. "yeah yeah... It's such a shame you keep getting into bad accident's". he says with a cold tone. "uh-.. You alright" i ask wanting to know why he isn't cherry or holding a happy tone. "no- yeah yeah i am. Its just that-.... never mind. um have a good day, be safe". he says with a concerned tone. "um alright. You too" i say with questioning eyes and fake smile. He then swings off and i just look at him. Why are you always there when i don't need you. How are you always there. Leave me alone please... Pleas-. I then get cut off from my thoughts from someone yelling at me.

"sorry i didn't see you. Are you alright" the guy i'm guessing was driving the truck asked. I then let out a sigh before convincing him i'm alright. I then grab my things and start heading home.

Once home i lay on my bed thinking of other ways to off my self. Time goes by and it falls to 12. Wait.. I could try to kill myself twice a day, i mean why not. I always have a high roof waiting for me at the end of the day so why not. It wont hurt anybody but myself. And spiderman must not be anywhere near here. Its very late. He has to have school. Well lets go. I then head up to the roof and stare down to the ground. It doesn't seem as frightening and high anymore. But it still can kill someone. I let out a deep breath before letting one foot walk off the edge, and then the other foot follow behind. I then start falling and this time i love it, the wind blowing on me, the soft lights being kept out by my eyelids. I love this feeling. But it sadly gets interrupted by spiderman once again. I open my eyes to see he is holding me with 1 arm and the other holding a web that shoots up. This time i have a face like 'welp....'.

"uhh-, hey spiderman. I guess i'm really clumsy. Thankfully i can trust on the friendly neighbourhood spiderman, am i right" i say with a happy tone and fake smile. So fake that i let out a little giggle. Spiderman just lets out a sigh which confuses me and i fall frozen. He then holds me close and starts climbing up the side of the building to the roof. He lays me down on the roof and i am still stunned by him not talking yet. "u-uh, well thank you". I say snapping out of my stunned state. "yeah.. Its no problem. Just really stop coming up to the roof, i think its cursed" He says with his usual jokey mood. I then show a fake smile and let out a little giggle. "yeah... I think it would be best". Too bad. "Well, see ya" he says before jumping off the building. "um- BYEE!" i say waving off to him. If i jump right now, he wouldn't be able to save me, no way. But... I wont.

I then headed back to the roof exit door, but felt like someone was watching. But i just rolled it off my shoulder and headed back down to my room. Falling asleep at 3 am.