Twice The Love, Twice As Forbidden (sequel to Fixed DNA) Lesbian Stories

Chapter 44 - Depression

Francesca POV

Tim's breath blew over me as he slept silently beside me, he stirred slightly and wrapped his arm around me and curled around me,

"Baby get up" I shuffled out of his grasp.

"You okay?" His voice raspy and still half asleep,

"Just need some water" I replied as I slipped outside and to the kitchen where Mam was sat doing the night feed,

"Hey, couldn't sleep?" Mam asked,

"Nah, too much on my mind" I replied,

"What's wrong honey?" She asked,

"It's nothing it's just Tim" I sighed, "The past few weeks he's been distant but at the same time he's not left my side"

"Oh honey, it's probably just jitters with the baby and everything" She said attempting to comfort me,

"Why would he be nervous he's done this before, with Aria" I replied,

"Honey it's different with every birth a parent goes through, you're Mum was completely different with each one of you guys" She said,

"Mum didn't give birth to me" I sighed, "We all know that"

"Whether she did or not you're still our daughter; you belong in this family with your brothers and sisters...I'm sure whatever is bothering Tim he will talk to you and you just have to keep your head held high" She smiled, "Here grab your brother" She said as she passed him over to me; his small face scrunched up and I held him, Mam came back with a tub of ice cream and two spoons,

"Mam, it's like 2 in the morning" I chuckled,

"That's fine late night cravings" I chuckled at her as I grabbed a spoon and dug in, "How's pregnancy?" Mam asked,

"It's intimidating, its bad; I feel like I'm pregnant with twins" She chuckled at me,

"I feel fat and ugly" I whined as I dug into some more ice cream,

"Just think of your Mum having three of them in her" We both chuckled,

"Poor Mum" I chuckled,

"The only thing that I didn't enjoy about all your Mum's pregnancy was her cravings; she had some rancid cravings, like when she was pregnant with Xavier, I woke up one night and found her eating left over fried chicken and chocolate sauce" I chuckled at her,

"That's gross" We chuckled,

"Have you had any weird cravings yet?" She asked,

"I find that sometimes I'm chewing Tim's ear off for fish, peanut butter and pickles; separately and sometimes together" Mam's face grimaced,

"Well that is certainly odd?" She chuckled, "right I'm going to put this little guy back to bed as am I" she stood up and walked round the table planting a kiss on top of my head,

"Night Mam"

"Night sweetie" she called as she disappeared back up the stairs.

I had been sat for another 5 minutes when two strong arms wrapped around my shoulders, I went to swing but stopped myself as a mixed smell of Tim's aftershave and my perfume hugged my nose,

"Hey, what you doing up?" I asked still eating from the tub of ice cream Mam gave me,

"I heard what you said to Sarah about me" he replied glumly, "baby you have to know I'm not doing it by choice" he said,

"What does that mean?" I asked taken back by his admittance,

"The other week when I went to the hospital, I went for an MRI" Just that word alone slapped me with fear and panic,