Twice The Love, Twice As Forbidden (sequel to Fixed DNA) Lesbian Stories

Chapter 51- Francesca Lily Smith-Langford

Francesca POV

2 Months; 2 months ago I had lost both my beautiful baby boy and my soul mate. Each day was as painful as the last even though it had been 2 month, their deaths was still fresh in my mind.

There was yet another knock on the door the sixth one today,

"Fran honey you need to talk to someone"

"I don't need to talk to anyone" I snapped; crying into my pillow as I had everyday for the past 2 months.

~Flashback~

A day of blackness I had to endure today with both parents at my side and without a family; I was here to have all my family buried; after talking to Philip and August they agreed to allow a double burial so that Tim and Thomas could be buried together, it was far too painful to have to endure two funerals. My body was numb and cold as I listened to the priest as he began the funeral service; I didn't want to listen to it I just leant into my Mum's side and cried heavy tears as Mum's arm snaked around my back; I watched as the coffin was lowered into the ground Tim's first and then Thomas' was lowered down on top as each and every one of us took a fistful of dirt and threw it into the ground.

~end of flashback~

The bed dipped beside me and Tim was sat beside me with his warm comforting smile on his face as the warm smell of cinnamon surrounded my nose it was welcoming and comfort for me,

"You need to get out of bed" He said,

"I can't live everyday knowing you aren't here to live every moment with me" I sniffed,

"I am I'm here watching you every step of the way, Thomas is with me and he laughs and smiles to stay strong for his Mammy" A new set of tears barrelled down my face I wanted to hug him and draw him close to me; to have him laid with me while I fell asleep,

"I love you Tim" I whispered,

"And I you; every step of the way all the way I love you don't you forget it" His soft words hung in my ears and my head,

"I had two perfect people in my life and in the space of 30 minutes I lost you both" I whispered, "Tim please take me with you" I sobbed,

"We aren't ready for you up here baby; the world still need you down here"

"What for?" I chuckled solemnly, "Nobody is interested in me any more I sit up here day in day out and nothing they don't care" I cried,

"Move on with your life baby, please for me"My hand felt cold as he reached out and touched it,"It pains me knowing you won't move on; move on love someone make a life for me" I couldn't believe he was telling me to do this,

"I can't I still love you, it would be cheating" I gasped. The room was quiet again I looked up and Tim had disappeared from the side of the bed,

"Fran?" There was the knocking again, "Are you going to come down for something to eat?", exhaling and falling into the pressure I sighed and stumbled to the door swinging it open and saw my Mum stood with a beaming smile on her face,

"Francesca" She smiled, "Come on let's go get some dinner" She proffered her hand and I took it as she helped me in taking my first steps out of my room for the first time in 2 months,

"You're doing brilliantly baby girl" She cheered me on, just as we reached the kitchen,

"Hey there she is" Mam beamed as she was placing a bowl each in front of the triplets, "There's your big sister" She walked over and wrapped her arms around my shoulders, "It's good to see you honey" she whispered in my ear,