America

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Ryan-hey I'm outside
Me-ok omw out
I finish putting on my eyeliner and realize I don't know shit about dates and what if my outfit is not good I'm wearing a lace crop top with a black undershirt some light skinny skinny jeans...Whatever.
I walk out side and he is wearing a T-shirt and blue jeans. He opens my door and I get in.ok seriously that is some amazing shit and people say chivalry is dead.
"You look cuter than I remember"
"Is that a compliment" I laugh
"I tried... But you do look amazing"
"Thanks" I blush
"So um Where do you want to eat?"
"Can we go to Dairy Queen?"
"Yeah" he laughs
After we eat we go to the movies where we picked some drama movie ... I personally hate drama movies. And it's like he had read my mind because we sit through the first ten minutes and he says
"This movie blows"
"Agreed"
"Let's go"
"Ok"
We go to the park and sit on the same dock where I was thrown off of about a month ago. I take my shoes off and put my feet in the water as we talk.
"So did you have fun?"
"Yes I had an amazing time with you"
He laughs "Good"
"Did you have fun" a ask reiterating his question
"How could I not have fun with a beautiful girl next to me"
"Oh" look away and bite my lip.
After our awkward intro to the conversation we start talking about our day. He taught me the rules of hockey and I taught him the rules of football well what I know considering I'm not an avid player and I have only watched it when my brother did. We talked about college and our aspirations. I liked talking with him. Everything was so different we were so different.
But then like all good things it came to an end.
"I better get you home Cinderella"
"Alright"
"Come on" he says standing up and holding his hand out for me to grab
I take it and stand up. So me not being romantic at all I expect him to let go but instead he wiggles his fingers until ours are intertwined. I don't know what to do. I don't know what he expects. Ugh! My stomach feels like it's floating. He finally let go when we arrive at the car. He opened my for me I get in and take a deep breathe. He drives to my house. When we get there he parks the car and gets out to open my door. He walks me to the door.
"So ummm I had fun tonight"
"I did too!" Smiling at how awkward he was being. I felt a little bit better the floating feeling turned into butterflies
"Good" he says
I've seen movies I know what happens on the door step but am I ready? I mean I've kissed other dudes but why does this feel different?!? He is just standing there smiling like a creep.
"What" I say smiling
"Your beautiful" he says smiling back
I purse my lips together and blush "you really think that"
"I don't lie" he said looking quite confident
"Oh well umm thanks" I say feeling weird because I didn't know what else to say.
"We should hangout more" he says breaking the awkwardness
"We totally should"
He stares away and I rock on my heels. "Sooooooo" he says leaning closer to me.
Here we are standing face to face on my porch. His brown eyes seem to dance with the reflection of the moon. I can feel my face getting hot. He smiles. Oh great and powerful oz help me! We are now so close I can feel his breath on my face. That's pretty damn close. And just like that my brother walks out the door.
"Oh uhhh... I didn't know you were home" he says going inside and closing the door. I pull away from Ryan
"Well ummm goodnight" I say. Jesus could I be more painfully awkward!
"Oh yeah well goodnight" he say as he backs up and almost falls down the porch step. I go inside and go to my room. Can I just forget about tonight...