America

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"You're late"
"Sorry I was-"
"I don't want to hear excuses sit down"
"Sorry"
I take my seat in front of Brain. I try to control my breathing but fuck I should not have ran I'm not good at it. I should stick to waking up early and walking to school. Because damn. I pull out my notebook and a pen and start taking notes. I promised myself I would pay attention in class but phone is going crazy. I can hear it calling me. *buzz*buzz*buzz* I feel a tap on my shoulder
"You should check that"
"I'm actually trying to pay attention"
"Oh so you hardly talk to us for about a month then you want to act all weird"
"Sorry it's just I have a lot going on"
"We know just read your messages"
"Alright"
Group messages Brain,Mitch
Mitch: meet us at the park
Brain: tonight
Brain:at 7
Mitch: it's going to be fun
Brian: are we going to tell her what it is
Mitch: yeah... You can tell her
Brian: we are going on a picnic with all the guys and gals
Me: Jesus you guys are ridiculous and that sounds fun!
"Miss Mann! This is twice you have disrupted my class today! Go to the hallway"
"But-"
"I don't want to hear excuses"
I can feel my face burning. Ugh why does he hate me? What did I ever do to him?
"Miss Mann can you please hurry I would like to resume my lesson. We shall talk after class"
"Sorry" I mumble as I get up.
I get the rest of my things and go to the hall. I sit beside the door and pull my knees up to my chest. I rest my head on my knees and think. That was so embarrassing.What the actual fuck is life right now. I don't know whether to be angry that I got in trouble by my jackass of a teacher or to be happy because I get to hangout with my friends and tell them I'm going to Texas in a month. Stress makes me sleepy so yeah thanks bell for scaring the fuck out of me.
"You really distracted me from learning in class today I don't appreciate that Ms.Mann" Mitch says laughing and helping me up. "I wasn't even the only one talking why does he hate me"
They didn't say anything I guess it was obvious that I needed to be left alone.
"Ms.mann I am ready to speak to you now"
I walk in to the emptying classroom and stand in front of him.
"I have noticed you have been acting differently recently"
"You are so great at observing" I know it's not the time for sarcasm but I can't help myself.
"I am going to take that a a compliment... Anyhow I am going to ask to not do that again because it is very disruptive to the other students-"
"But I wasn't the only one talking"
"But you were the one that got caught... Multiple times at that...I know this is your senior year but if this continues you will be sitting alone in the hallway for the remainder of the year"
I stare blankly at him.
"Do you understand?"
"Yes"
"Yes?"
"Yes... Sir"
"Good you can leave now I have a class to teach" I turn around and see a class full of kids.
I need to cool off... And cool off I shall do...during my fifth period free period I make a quick trip home and get one of the bags I hidden in between the mattresses ... I knew these would come in handy someday. These next classes are going to be crazy.
I walk into the economic classroom and the room seems to moving.
"Woah"
"Hey America are you ok" I look and see Garrett.
"Yeah I'm totally fine"
"Alright" he looks at me as he sits down next to me.
"Cu-LASS are you yearning for some learning" the teacher smiles and bounces into the room.
Fuck my life I shouldn't have taken those pills the room is spinning and the teacher looks like a motherfucking talking lizard. I pull my legs up to my chest as I sit in my desk.
Garrett leans over " Are you sure your alright"
"I feel sick that's all" I say as I stare wide eyed while mesmerized by the flying flowers.
"I think you should see the nurse"
"NO" I shout to Garret the talking talking pink hippo
"Please no talking while I'm teaching" the lizard teacher turns around and scolds us in a Stern sing song voice.
"Fine but don't blame for not helping because I offered" hippo Garrett whispers before pulling out his binder
I can feel the pills taking over. I look up to the dull ceiling which seems to have spots of fading colors. I feel free loose like I can do anything I want to dance and sing. Who the fuck cares about anything! I feel fucking great!
I don't remember anything about the class as the bell rings I jump out of my seat and start dancing and humming to my next class.
"Hey wait up" I can hear Garret say walking up behind me
"Hey Garrett let's go my house and have fun" the words spill out of my mouth
"What no we have to get to class what is wrong with you"
"I stop walking in the middle of the hallway and lose my balance as I feel people push against me as the try to go around us. I stand on my toes and whisper in to Garrett's ear
"I am happy"
He furrows his eyebrows.
I roll my eyes and pull the bag that only has two pills left out of my pocket.
He pulls me to the side of the hallway.
Oh haha he looks angry. How can he be angry when life is so- so fucking fantastic.
"You took drugs" he yell whispers.
"Shhhh don't tell my friends" I say putting a finger up to my mouth then laughing realizing I just told one of my friends. I slink out from where he was and run away. Why I run I have no idea. I can hear Garrett behind me. "AMERICA"
"AMERICAAAAAA"
"America"
I think I lost him because I don't hear him anymore or maybe he just gave up. I'm used to people giving up on me.
I run out to the field behind the school then stop and lie down. I can hear the late bell ring in the distance. I look at the sky it is so blue it looks like a flying ocean. With flying beaked fish. I start singing I don't normally sing... Don't get me wrong I like music but I suck at singing so I just don't do it.
Fuck it I'm free to do what I want... it's my life.
"I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare! I'm just a kid and I know that it's not fair!"
"AMERICA WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK"
I can here Mitch yelling. How did he find me.
I sit up and see him running towards me.
"HEY Mitch...Mitch-ster... Mitch matched socks... Mitch-y mouse... Monster Mitch... Mitch the B-"
"What's wrong with you" he cuts me off
"Noth-" and just like the movie mean girls... But not word vomit... I actually vomit.
"Fuck" Mitch jumps back so it doesn't get on him.
"Sorry it's just I-" again I throw up. This is like a nightmare. Mitch is just staring at me and I am puking my brains out I probably look disgusting... Actually there is no probably I know I look disgusting.I stand up well the pills wore off... Or that was just just such a mood crusher that I don't even notice them and now I have a headache it's weird how fast those pills effects went away.
"I think I should take you home"
"I-I'm Fine" I stutter trying to focus on not throwing up.
I get up wipe my face with the sleeve of my jacket and turn around to go home.