10 cm apart ♧ jeongsung

Not doing anything

"so you're going through a break up?"

jeongin nodded thoroughly as the older spilled up in one sitting. jisung was fiddling with his sleeves, fingers never stayed still as he teared and up, pausing every moment to gather himself, and failing to do so in spouting the reason for his tears, none other than kim seungmin.

"here i thought, you're just a player like him. i mean-"

the athlete was famous for breaking hearts, it isn't news or surprising to jeongin at all. the stories flew from wall to wall, the famous people of the music department, han jisung included, everyone knew them. jeongin would most likely not pay attention to gossips and rolling of tongues, but the news doesn't go unnoticed.

"he-he broke up with me, he sh-said,  you deserved someone who can always be with you, give you the attention you deserved, the love and time."  jisung sobbed, he kept wiping his nose with the overused tissue as neongin just gave him a whole box, to stop him from ripping the tissue he's holding, apart.

"i didn't take you to be someone who cries in for a breakup- i mean, you always hook up here and there.'" jeongin snickers but jisung's too busy crying, "that's different...like a mile, different."

"But but...b-but jeongin i never complained, i never did if he has things to do, because i do too. it's not like i didn't understand how much he needed to go to his baseball activities- i

i always tagged along if i could."

"and -and he said it's fine whenever, it's me who's busy?"

"it was not excuse."

" i could always make time for him, for us, i don't mind if he can't."

"i saw no problem, he was happy, i was happy."

"it's not an exxuse to end it altogether." jisung sobs.

jeongin kept his hands circling and consoling the older, all flushed swollen from crying, it was a mess, drool and snot combined. jisung was hugging his knees. the couch became their forum.

"I might've been cranky because i'm needy at times, but I was excessively clingy."

"he just snapped and-and...

he would force the older for snacks and movies everyday, just to check up on him. bother his hyung for help in assignments even if he didn't need someone to coach him.

"i didn't want anyone else. Only him. Is it that  hard to understand?"

"no-it's not hyung.jeongin understand it simply, but people just have different views.

"thank you! I don't know how his head works, onnie." he yelled, sobbed and squeezed the couch pillow.

"i don't want to linger around and look like a fool, innie, i've chased way too much people, for me to keep chasing more."

"you're not gonna try and fix things?" jeongin asked out of curiousity and asking twice to nake sure to know where jisung stands.

"there's nothing to fix... he just said to leave him, me? leave him? he's the one pushing me away. putting words in my mouth that i never said."

" he said he can't be in a relationship with me, because he'll hurt me."

"now he just decided to cut me off in one go, making it aound like- like a  euthanasia to a dying person."