10 cm apart ♧ jeongsung

The person who blinks and laughs first

"tell me, jisung-hyung, how did you know you like boys?"

jeongin never put actually put an effort to get to know a person, it happens naturally with thise he grew up with, not that he didn't find anyone interesting, his friends we're all from his childhood, and there's nothing more revolting, than knowing how they toss and turn in their after countless of sleepovers. their favorite slippers. he's grown with them, and is tired of them.

a queer roommate is much more intriguing, per se, a sea unexplored just by his doors, in every way jisung'd hair changes monthly, from purple to greens. he goes out of coubtry, all of this things. only this time, would he try to pry.

curious.

"uhhhh. i think it's the same feeling of attraction and crushing?" jisung sounded unsure that his face contorted into a frown, until further pondering, the wrinkle under his chin, smoothened out.

jeongin nodded, pouring his concentration to every features the older makes.

"my first love, i just adored the guy, of course, i thought it's just plain adoration, until I've been focusing too much on him." jisung continued and smiled.

"i literally singled him in my mind, chris is his name, i behaved differently around him, much kinder, the urge and want to know what he likes- everything about him- and he's very kind." he continued on enthusiastic.

"too kind."

"i liked him, to the point that i wanna shove my face to him." jisung explained, and made him remember how he fell for chan. jeongin can see the flush in jisung's cheeks.

"Kiss?" and jeongin further questioned at how innocent that seemed, like a terny tiny child curious to kiss a significant playmate.

"Yeah, i kissed him drunk, technically he did, but, hmm... I think to put it simply, when you like someone with the kind of like where you wanna marry them."

"i think you love them, romantically."

"it's not rocket science to figure it out, the case being is how you'll act on it. wait, why'd you ask?" jisung was way tpo absorbed at the topic that he forgot why they were talking about him in the first place.

"Just curious."

"oh, are you sure there's nothing else? cases still vary though, i have a friend who doesn't know what to do with her feelings or didn't know about it at all until further." jising raised a brow.

"You just seemed so free." jeongin exhaled.

"i kind of envy you, hyung."

jisung didn't expect that to come from the younger, he knows that the jeongin exercise certain amounts of freedom, knowing that they both rarely come home to their dorms.

"well, i don't have parents and basically living by myself, so...."

"oh gosh. yeah, that's." jeongin retracted all his thoughts.

"that's why i'm free, it's not because i'm gay, though it has it's perks. recognizing yourself is freeing in general, innie.

"maybe just how I carry myself, and i don't need permission from anybody. i think we're all independent in some ways."

"i don't think you're bad yourself, you're consistent at what you do. i believe your parents trust you though. that's something people rarely obtain. considering the people around you isn't bad, too."

"if you really want to do something, just do it and prove to people that you can."

jisung rambled on.