Addicted to your love[ completed ]

Chapter20: relationships

Aysia pov

It's been a month now and I've de died to go on vacation. I really need to get my mind off of things. I'm 1 month so far and I'm not that big. I think I wanna go to Miami again. Lately I've been talking to this guy named Brian. He's very nice but I don't think I want anyone in my life yet. He would work as a best friend but not anything else. I mean everything is going great without Dandre. I just need time to myself. Sometimes I do get emotional thinking back on our old relationship. I just want a good relationship.
I walked downstairs to my kitchen and started to cook myself breakfast. I played music in the background.
We gon light some candles tonight
Very special
We gon do what ever you like
Very special
Got some Henny chillen on ice
The song v.s.o.p played in the background
After I finished cooking I sat down and turned on the t.v. The food was very good. I was interrupted by a phone call. It was Brian.

*phone convo*
Me:hello
Brian: hey beautiful
Me: hi
Brian: what are you doing today
Me: I don't know as of yet
Brian: well hit me up later if your not busy
Me: ok
Brian:bye
I heard a knock on my door. I really wasn't expecting anybody. I walked over to my door. I opened it to see Dandre.

Dandre: wait hear me out before you close the door
Me: what else do you have to say
Dandre:I'm sorry
Me: is that all you can say you've been lying to me for 2 months now
Dandre: I know and I'm
Me: STOP WITH THE FUCKING SORRIEST BECAUSE I KNOW YOUR NOT GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM MY HOUSE IM DONE WITH YOU FOREVER
Dandre: your pregnant with my child
Me: I've said enough but when your child comes you will see her on weekends that's it there will never be anymore of us so get the fuck out of my life until these 9 months go by.
On that note I slammed he door in his face and walked upstairs. I was so pissed off. I decided to get out the house i couldnt deal with him anymore. I went upstairs to take a shower and get dress. I put on my grey tights with my Burgundy crop top and gold leather jacket. I decided to go see mom. I grabbed my purse and left.

It took me two hours to get to my moms house. I got there around 1:00. When i got there my mom was so happy to see me. I never really visit her anymore because of all the drama. Im accually thinking about staying down here for a while untill i get my mind straight and back on my feet. I walked into the house.

Me:hey mom i missed you
Lexi (mom):hey baby i missed you too.
Me: im so tired and stressed between this little nugget and dandre
Mom: oh lord what happened now
Me:well he has been cheating on me for about a month with bria my so called best friend so im done with em both
Mom: oh wow well i got mg own issues
Me: what you mean whats going on
Mom: im having health issues something with my lungs i can rarely breathe. She said while lighting a cigerate and taking a puff.
Me:thats tge issue stip smoking
Mom:child please if it was because of smoking i would have been gone a long time ago
Me: whatever where is my baby imani
Mom: she should be here any sec-
Imani:MOMMY
she calls me that because her mom died 3 days after the preganacy and ive been a mother figure to her ive just been gone for a while though.
Me: omg come here ny baby i mossed you hunn
Imani:when can i come stay with you dandre and little nugget
Me: you wanna come this weekend
Imani: yea plzzz mommy
Me: ok its gonna be just me you and nugget
Imani:can i live with you
Me:if grandma say yea then yea you can
Imani:grandma plzz can i stay with mommy and nugget
Mom: ok sure why not
Imani: yeaa mommy can i go olack my stuff and we leave when you finish
Me:yes baby go
Imani:yayyyy
Mom:that girl sure loves you
Me:yea i mean ive been the only one there for her
Mom: no you havent how dare you say that and you left this girl here for a 2yrs.
Me: ive been visiting having her come see me i wssnt for all that before
Mom:well then what makes you ready now huh
Me: shes not really my child i chose to be there for her because i know no one else will be
Mom:then if shes not your child go if u dont want her go
Me:i love that little girl to death and i love you too but im not gonna let you talk to.me some type of way and i dont care if your my mom you left me to get raped by daddy while you were out on the streets prostatuting you left me with daddy to get abused while you were out living your life i didnt tell you how to live yours so dont tell me how to live mine and dont you ever say im not ready to take care of this child because you missed all of my childhood and now your trying to be my mom its too fucking late and i love you so much but-.

She then slapped me.
Mom: I DONT KNOW WHO THE HELL YOUR TALKING TO BUT I KNOW ITS NOT ME IM YOUR MOTHER SHOW SOME RESPECT I DID ALL THAT SHIT TO GET MONEY FOR YOU
me: HOW DID YOU DO THAT FOR ME IF YOU WERE NEVER THERE IM TIRED OF YOU ACTING LIKE MY MOTHER BECAUSE IT DOESNT SEEM LIKE YOU ARE YOU DIDNT RAISE ME I RAISED MYSELF AND IM ABOUT SICK AND FUCKING TIRED OF YOU TRYING TO TELL ME HOW TO LIVE MY LIFE I LOVE YOU SO FUCK MUCH MOTHER BUT IM DONE.
mim: i love you too and your right im sorry
Me:Come on imani lets go baby.
Imani: ok bye grandma love you ill call you
Mom: ok
Me: bye ma i love you see you in a lil while
Imani: i love you mommy
Me: i love you too

*2 hrs later*

We arrived to the house. Imani was in the back seat knocked out. I picked her up and put her in my bed. I then got into some sleep