A Recusant Relationship

The Hotel

"Ok that's the last of this one"
You say as you hang her last piece of clothing before walking towards her
"Need a hand with that one?"
You ask

"Oh no, the last of that one is a bit too much to expose you to"
She says with a chuckle

"That one definitely has a piece of your husband in it"
You say laughing along with her

"Something like that"
She says with an eyebrow raise

"Oh, that"
You say with a nervous laugh, feeling the redness flush over your skin at the thought of Cate having a vibrator

I hate that she makes me feel like this, I love it but I hate it.

She laughs
"Are you blushing Miss"
She asks playfully, a single brow raising

"No!"
You say quickly

Yes

"Just a bit flushed from moving everything?"
She asks with a smirk, knowing that is absolutely not the case

"Yeah"
You say with a nod

"Mmhmm"
She hums with a smirk & a slow nod

She's so attractive

What is she doing?

Is she flirting?

No. Stop thinking like that.

"You still with me?"
She asks

"Yeah, I'm still with you"
You say with a laugh, trying to cover your gay panic

"I'll go grab a drink while you unpack your intimates"
You say as casual as possible, she chuckles in a way that says you don't have to leave
"Would you like something to drink? Water, tea, coffee?"
You ask

"Oh yes please I'll have a glass of water and a tea please, black, one sweetener"
She says

"No worries"
You say.

You leave, nervously preparing  the drinks & setting them in the sitting area

You need to calm down. Stop fangirling and gay panicking.
She's still technically married, you work for her and she's Cate fucking Blanchett.

Moments later there she is.
"All done!"
She says happily
"Thank you so much for everything"
She says as she sits beside you, turning towards you slightly as she reaches out a hand to you, giving your arm a gentle rub in appreciation

"It's ok, I'm happy to help"
You say
"It's still so surreal being around you honesty"
You add

"Oh stop it, you'll make me blush!"
She says, swatting at you playfully before
sipping her tea that you previously nervously prepared

She's just being friendly

"Oh that's perfect"
She says after swallowing her sip
Thank god.
"So, tell me about yourself. Do you have a girlfriend? You single? Divorcing?"
She says ending the question with a funny tone, making light of the situation 

You chuckle with her
"I'm single"
You say

"Oh good"
She says with a smile

Good? Good why?

"Good why?"
You say with a confused look

"Oh no reason in particular, it's good you can focus on yourself"
She says

See

"That's very true. I am getting over a somewhat breakup, we weren't together even half as long as you and your husband but I understand some of what you're feeling"
You say

"Oh I'm sorry to hear that."
She says genuinely

"She cheated too"
You say
"Well not completely, same thing as with you. We were on a break and now she has a new girlfriend"
You add

"Well we're perfect for one another then arent we"
She says, a statement not a question

"It seems so"
You say with a nervous smile

"So what is it like being in a relationship with a woman?"
She asks, shuffling on her seat

She probably just wants to be friendly and get to know me

"That's such a huge question"
You say before thinking some more, she looks deeply at you
"It's like you're completely understood. Like you're truly matched and whole.
It's incredibly intense, emotions beyond belief and even comprehension and it's deeply intimate and passionate to say the absolute least"
You say, speaking from your heart

A small smile crosses her face, her eyes examine.
"Wow"
She says
"Im sold"
She adds

You chuckle, she chuckles quietly with you, not fully.

What is she doing..