Dream smp one-shots

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{Tw}: implied body dysphoria and self hatred thoughts.

{pairing}: Kalr x reader.

{Au warning}: it's based around the irl environment.

(This is a request- I guess I didn't really get to the shy side of the reader because I was pretty invested in the angst to fluff thing going on :) soo yeah. )

You took a deep breath in and out as you tried to clear your thoughts but to no avail. Your mind was cruel and hadn't let you a blink of sleep due to your own body. How could it? After all you had done to stop these thoughts they still had the audacity to return to you fiercer than before.

You sat up in your bed rubbing your eyes yawning, you threw the blankets off of you getting up, you couldn't sleep so what's the point in staying in bed? Even if you really wanted to, you knew it was no good.

You sat down at your kitchen table and just stared at your food you didn't really feel like eating right now your mind was too busy reminding you of your previous self making you feel sick to your stomach so you got up and left the bowl of cereal on the table to try and find something to distract you.

Nothing was helping. It felt like you were being sucked into a black hole you felt hungry but you didn't want to eat. You tried to sleep but couldn't find peace of mind. You wanted to try and write but you had no energy or motivation.

You felt helpless which made you feel useless. How could you ever do anything if you couldn't do the simple task of keeping thoughts at bay?

You sat in the middle of your room crying it felt stupid to cry but that's all you seemed to be able to do you tried to hide yourself your body..anything to stop these disgusting thoughts from attacking you but nothing helped.

It felt like you were going to die right then and there you felt like the whole world was set on top of you. It was a crushing weight that made you feel like you couldn't leave and that you couldn't move.

a phone ringing was what brought you back from your head that seemed to have trapped you. You sat up from your spot, you felt heavy, you still felt tired.

"Hello?.." your voice was hoarse and tired sounding it made you cringe you hoped whoever was on the other side hadn't noticed it.

"Y/n? Are you okay? You sound upset." You smiled a little karl he had been your partner for a while now you two didn't live together for a lot of reasons you didn't want him to see you like this broken and hurt by your own mind.

"I'm..fine Karl thank you..Erm what's up?" You did your best to sound better than when you first spoke.

"Did you forget? I'm coming over to visit. I was just giving you a warning before I did" he still sounded concerned but that's not what you were worried about he was coming over today?!

"O-oh..wait today? But I thought.." he chuckled a little from the other side of the phone.

"You lose track of the days Y/n?" His voice was teasing and obviously all lighthearted but it made you feel horrible had you really forgotten something as important as him visiting?

"You.." you felt yourself spiraling down again. "Don't...please" your voice was quiet and your words came out as a whisper before hanging up you couldn't- no you wouldn't let him see you like this.

You hanging up the phone abruptly worried Karl to no end. Normally he respected your wishes and wouldn't have come to your house but he was far too concerned about how you had acted to really think about that.

"Y/n? Are you here?" He called out dropping his bags by the front door and going to search for you.

"Y/n! Cmon answer me!" The worst possible things that could have happened to you flashed through his mind and he started to panic and frantically searched up and down for you.

"Oh god-" he stopped and listened he swore he heard- crying he turned around and looked around your room where were you? "Y/n?.." then there were slight noises from under the bed. Why were you hiding? He frowned crouching down and sighing relieved he found you but upset with the condition you were in.

"Oh..y/n" he slowly reached his hand out towards you. You barely reacted but instead stayed limp which freaked him out.

"Y/n? Are you okay?" He nearly whispered, laying his hand on yours.

You nodded a little before it turned into you sobbing more Karl quickly grabbed your hand and gently pulled you towards him.

"Shh.." he held you close, hushing you slightly and rocking back and forth slowly helping you calm your nerves.

"You're okay..I'm here it's going to be okay." Was the last thing you heard before falling asleep.

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