But if you never try, you'll never know. (BLS, Justin Bieber fanfic)

Chapter 19

As I said it, tears finally escaped my eyes. He's my weakness. I couldn't stop my tears, they flooded like a river, as I ran out the bus and to the arena. I didn't know here I was heading, and I didn't care. As long as I'm away from everyone.

I ran trough some doors, up some stairs, and when I opened one last doors, I was on the roof. "Good place to be right now." I murmured to myself. I sat in the middle of the roof.

It hurt when he looked like nothing's happening and was so calm about the fact he cheated. It hurt a lot. It felt like someone has just took my heart and tear it apart. Ididn't know what to do - and that was the worst thing.

Maybe I was over-reacting? Maybe I should forgive him? I mean he was drunk, and didn't know what he's doing.

NO. Because of him I barely trusted someone. But I loved him, I've loved him all the time, and I knew he would come back, and I couldn't fight him, he earned my trust again. But now? Now I don't know what's happening, I don't know what to do. Yesterday everything was perfect, he loved me, I loved him, now I'm sitting on a roof all alone thinking if I should leave or not, and he? He's taking it so calmly. Maybe he doesn't even care? Maybe he just played me? No, I don't think so.

Maybe I should take a break and go home, and IF I'm ready come back? That would be a good choice. I could leave tomorrow and everything would be better. I just can't do it. Maybe Justin's still the player he used to be?

I'm really confused and don't know what to do. Ahhh, why is this so hard?

Suddenly, something made me snap out of all my thoughts. I looked over to that someone who had just opened the door. I blinked my eyes as everything was blury from crying. It was Justin. I got up and walked to the door where Justin was standing. Why did he found me? How did he found me?

I  couldn't even look in his eyes, how broken I felt.

Justin held me by my arm.

"What do you want?" I spat harshly. I didn't want to talk to him. All I wanted was to get lost somewhere, or to just get home. And get into my old routine.

"Jade, I'm really sorry. I didn't mean to do it."

"But you did it. And that's enough. Justin, we've been together for barely a week, and look, you're cheating. It was a bad idea to come on tour with you. I regret that. For a moment I thought you were my one and only, but I was so wrong." I looked down and cried even more. It hurt like hell.

"I'm really really sorry. I was drunk, okay? I didn't know what I was doing. I regret it."

"But Justin, don't you understand? We're fighting more than we're doing something normal. You're still the player you used to be. I knew it. "

"No, Jade. I said, I'm sorry. I can't lose you, you're my everything. If I'll lose you, I'll lose a half of me."

"But I wasn't your everything when you decided to cheat, huh?"

With that, I ran away. I left Justin standing there, with him searching for words to say. I walked to the bus, still crying. I walked in and started to pack all my things.

Abbey grabbed me by my hands and looked at me. "Jade, what are you doing?"

"J-Justin ch- chea- cheated o-on-on me." I said, sobbing.

"HE WHAT?!" She shouted. With that Vanessa and Kaelyn also appeared from the kitchen.

"What did we miss?" Vanessa asked, looking worried, seeing me crying. 

"Justin cheated on me."

They all hugged me.

"Why? and with who?"

"Well, he was at a club last night, and got drunk, tho I said to Fredo, that he needs to take care of him. And so he got drunk and didn't know what he was doing and hooked up with some chick. So, I guess I'm leaving. I mean I can't do it. We are fighting more than we're doing something normal. I need a break."

"No, you're not going anywhere. And this isn't the first time he has done that. When he was with Selena he did it too, but then he understood, he didn't want to lose her, so he never did it again. When he did it, Selena left, but Justin didn't eat nor sleep. He had no energy to perform, he started to feel sick, because he barely ate and slept. He always had red and puffy eyes. But then, he traveled over to where she was, and did something, that she forgave him."

"But if he had so many problems, why would he do it again?"

"Maybe he didn't learn from the first mistake, so you should give him a lesson. Selena wasn't hard-to-get or something. But I know you're strong, and just show him, he won't get you that easy, make him feel the pain you're feeling right now. Maybe then he will understand."

"Maybe I should. But I don't know if I'm gonna make it, That's gonna hurt me too, to reject the one I love."

"But luvie, do you seriously want him  to do it again?"

"No." I answered shortly, still sobbing a bit.

"So, just do it. That will make you both stronger."

"Thank you girls." I tried to smile, tho it was hard, because now all I wanted to do was cry.

"Always welcome." They said in unison.

"You wanna come to our rehearsal?" Kaelyn asked.

"I don't know, I mean he's gonna be there...."

"Jade, this is the chance."

"Well....

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That's it. It's kinda short, I know. But it's really late and I'm tired, so yeah. Hope you liked it!

Gonna try and make the next chappie more interesting. =]

And omg, guys, have you heard "Nothing Like Us". It's like the besat song ever, tho it's so sad, but I love it. "Fall" was how it all started, "She Don't Like The Lights" were the problems, and "Nothing Like Us" was how it all ended. I feel so sorry for him, because he's so hurt, and she just used him in all the ways she could. I know, I should support Jelena, but I'm somehow happy that it all ended and sad at the same time. I mean, there's no-one that will use him again, but it's sad that he's hurt. He truly loved her. :(

Sorry, I'm just listening to "Nothing Like Us", and yeah, I had to share it to someone, as I was boiling inside about it all. ;D

Anyways, love you all.<3