Colby Brock Centric Oneshots

Ledges (Solby)

The heights started off small not nearly high enough to kill. Sure falling from the ledges could cause serious harm but it wouldn't do more than that. So coming too close to the edge of the buildings to lean off the ledges just to feel alive for a moment or two was fine. At least that's what he told himself as his fascination for heights gave him a feeling of exhilaration. He told himself that it was only because he liked the view, that he only lingered around the edges of the buildings because the view was beautiful.

It wasn't at all because he liked the thrill of standing recklessly on the edge, it wasn't because the feeling of wind rushing past his light chocolate brown hair helped him think. It wasn't because the wind whipping against his face helped him feel something. It wasn't a problem, he'd never actually let himself do any more than feel the sensation of leaning ever so slightly off the edge. He'd never let himself go into a free fall off of anything no matter how strong the feeling was at times. Sure maybe it wasn't the safest obsession but nobody had to know if he didn't want them too.

Luckily nobody did none of his roommates had guessed or wanted to know something so problematic about him. He was always reckless, always stopping just a step or so away from the edge, away from truly falling into the abyss. It was typical behavior for him, nobody ever thought he was serious everyone thought that it was just for content, just for laughs. So it was always used for humor and made into a joke, and truly who was he to deny them of that? Besides ignorance always was bliss there was really no reason to worry them.

But it only got worse as it became his coping mechanism. The ledges that could so easily end it all because his safe haven that he went too anytime that he was hurting until eventually he just occupied them even when he wasn't upset. His emotions left him numb having felt too many all these years finally seemed to break him.

And yet Colby couldn't tell when it had all started nor could he justify it. While it may have just started out as a way to clear his head by focusing on the rush around him it soon became more. It eventually became sinister, it eventually progressed into the absolute need to feel the danger. He was no longer just turning to the ledges only in videos but rather using his Instagram as a way to get to them as well. Any sense of photography on his account was usually a photo of him propped up on a ledge of a building.

Far to close to the edge for most people's comfort, but he played it off claiming that it was purely for 'aesthetic'. Although deep down he knew it wasn't nor had it ever been. But somehow it had managed to get so much worse he was no longer relishing the rush that the wind whipping past him while on the edge gave him but rather contemplating the thrill of what it would be like on the way down. It was a question that he was admittedly way too curious about as he found himself thinking about it endlessly. Every day he thought about it more and more wanting to try it and just propel himself into a free fall.

So he agreed and even suggested more dangerous challenges to Elton. Agreeing to them no matter the risk, it had gotten concerning and he'd been questioned about it countless times. Especially after he had gone bungee jumping off a bridge for a YouTube challenge. Everyone else had been hesitant on jumping off despite trying to hide it. Although they couldn't hide it because it was only natural to be hesitant on doing so which was only something he realized after he had mercilessly thrown himself off of the bridge.

Sure he had sparred a few words of apparently being scared before he had thrown himself off but there was no way it was believable when he had immediately jumped. Cursing to himself slightly for being so stupid he focused on his movements.

He was now falling at an alarming rate, the wind whipped against his face turning it slightly pink from the harshness of it. Soft chestnut- brown hair flowing in a disarray around him as it whipped at his face. Still, he willed himself to fall steadily keeping his mouth open in excitement as he talked to the viewers. All but screaming against the howling of the wind to be heard before he could even realize his body had stopped plunging him slightly in the cold depths of the water before he was carefully reeled upwards.