Colby Brock Centric Oneshots

Crazier Things

Based off of the song Crazier Things by Chelsea Cutler. The bolded text is lyrics.

I've been trying not to think about it,

Really Colby had been trying not to think about Sam. He'd tried so hard not to think of the brilliant sky blue eyes that he marveled at repeatedly. Tried not to stare at the tempting pink lips anytime that he was in a video or a Tik Tok with the blond. He especially tried not to think of the way that Sam felt like home to him. I can't help it But it was so hard not to love Sam especially when he lived with the older man. When he had to see those gorgeous sky blue eyes every day, the tempting teasing lips and being at such close proximity with Sam every day. It was so challenging to hide how he felt, near impossible. He could never get ahold of himself because he'd been in love with Sam since the moment he had laid eyes on the blonde all those years ago in band camp. And that wasn't just suddenly going to change he knew that, didn't even try to deny it. He knew that he had been hopelessly pining over Sam for years now and his feelings would never fade.

I know you don't wanna hear from me,

He knew that Sam had a life that the blonde was with the gorgeous Katrina. The gorgeous and kind Katrina that would always be better than he was in every way. At least to Sam believe him he knew that Katrina always came first.

but I am selfish

Yet he couldn't help it truly he couldn't help wishing that things could be different. That he could be the one that Sam loved. The one that Sam needed, the one that Sam wanted. He couldn't help but wish that those kisses that Sam shared with Katrina were for him. That all the hugs, late-night conversations, romantic gestures, and overall love we're for him. He couldn't help but wish that Sam loved him.

It kills me inside you can drink on Friday nights

But he couldn't ever bring himself to even want to tear Sam and Katrina apart. Because as much as he loved the blonde he also loves seeing the smile that graced Sam's face that only seemed to show itself around, Katrina. He knew that he could never give that to Sam, could never come even close to making Sam genuinely smile the way that Katrina did. And it hurt him more than anything. So he drank any chance he got without it becoming an addiction. He drank more than he probably should to just feel numb and not feel the heartbreaking sensation of love that he felt for Sam.

Not even pick up the phone

If only he had the level of nonchalance that Sam had. Often he found himself wishing that he could just not answer Sam's calls the way that Sam did to him whenever he had drunkenly called. It was impossible though because no matter how much pain Sam caused him whenever he saw the man's contact name light up his phone he was smiling like an absolute idiot and answering.

It amazes me you move on so easily From someone that you once called home

That didn't mean that he just forgot the way that he'd been tossed aside for Katrina though. No, he'd never be able to forget that. He could forgive sure but never could he forget. Because every time that Sam canceled on plans with him over Katrina he knew where he stood in the man's life. It always burned him as he remembered how close they had once been. Sharing a bed as they spoke of the future, skinny dipping with one another and making all of there high school memories with one another. They'd been each other's homes at one point... They'd even accomplished their dreams.

I wish you had enough discipline for the both of us

But his dream had always been holding Sam in his arms and knowing that his feelings were reciprocated. Which he hadn't accomplished so at least Sam had accomplished happiness with YouTube and Katrina. Sam had found happiness yet he wished that the blond would just set boundaries. That Sam would just let him go, send him away, and say that he wasn't needed anymore. Because it'd hurt less than sticking around.

Just because I don't know how to turn off the way I feel

His feelings weren't some damn switch that he could just turn off whenever he saw Katrina and Sam kissing. No, they were very much real he knew that by the way that pain blossomed in his chest as a somber smile overtook his features whenever he watched.

I know you always fell out love so damn easily

Yet he wasn't dumb he saw the way Sam looked at him at times. The way that Sam always looked at him whenever he got too close to Jake or Brennen. He saw the flare of jealousy anytime that he looked at someone in admiration that wasn't Sam. It confused him all the same. Because Sam was supposed to be in love with Katrina and there was no way that friends looked at each other the way that they looked at one another.

But honestly, I don't think you ever had something real

That's when people started noticing it and started pointing it out to him. Corey and Jake had started pointing out the way that Sam stared at him passionately with a sense of longing during videos. And really looking back on it and looking at specific clips he saw what they meant but he just convinced himself that he was being too hopeful. That was until Sam broke up with Katrina.

Until you met me, drinks in New York city

He'd taken on the task of looking after Sam when he got news of the breakup. Yet crazily Sam didn't seem the slightest bit fazed merely saying that it hadn't felt right. As they locked eyes he couldn't help the fact that his heart thumped rapidly in his chest. Couldn't help that his smiles had become genuine rather than forced as it felt like a weight was lifted off of his chest. Nor could he help the fact that his smile practically took over his whole face when Sam asked him on a date weeks later. Tears pricked his eyes before he was muttering yes a million times. His heart warmed when he saw Sam's huge smile before he was caught in a hug.

Ooh, you looked so pretty

And Sam had looked so perfect, so pretty when they met for drinks and a dinner. Just like he'd always imagined the night was perfect and absolutely unforgettable. He'd never forget the way that Sam had gazed at him with such love, he'd never forget the laughs they'd shared and just how wonderful it felt to no longer be in pain. He'd been waiting for this moment since they'd met.

Think I fell in love before I even knew your birthday

Because the truth was that he'd been in love with Sam since before he knew anything about the man. They'd just been dorky little teenagers at the time with the weight of the world on their shoulders. But when he looked at the blonde he knew evreything would be okay. He hadn't even known Sam's name at the time but he was so sure that he was in love. Which hadn't changed as he stared at Sam's sky blue eyes.

Kissed you on our first date

Before he even had time to think he had pulled Sam in for a kiss with Sam deepening it in need.

Somehow, I knew someday This would hurt 'cause I could never let you go

But it was different than it had been before. With the feeling of Sam's lips on his own, he knew that there was no need to let Sam go. He knew that he didn't need to hurt anymore. That he'd never need to hurt again. Oh, I'll spend my whole life Missing a part of me, part of me He smiled into the kiss as Sam's hands softly cradled his face while messing with the strands of hair that were stubbornly in his face. Sam finally broke the kiss in need of air. The blonde smiled at him breathlessly with dilated pupils.

Oh, I'll spend my whoole life Hoping your heart is free, heart is free

''Gosh, Colby, I love you so much.''