Not Me... [CANCELLED] (TRANS TOMMYINNIT )

I dont like myself

i dont like myself. i never did. i never liked my name, the way my hair was too long, the way that if i wanted to cut my hair too short i was ruining my thoughts with these "terrible ways", or the way that if i wanted to wear something other than skirts or dresses i would be "giving off the idea", or anything remotely like that. i hated how i hated me. i hated being a girl, but thats all i knew how to be. a girl. a wife, a girlfriend, a mom. not a man. not a husband. not a boyfriend. not a father. not a boy. a woman. but thats not what i want to be. but im not a boy, so i never will be one. i cant.
or...
can i?