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F O R T Y - F O U R

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𝗔𝗺𝗮𝗿𝗶 𝗞𝗮𝘆𝗹𝗲𝗻𝗲 𝗕𝗿𝗼𝘄𝗻𝗲 | 𝗠𝗮𝗿𝗶
𝙷𝚘𝚞𝚜𝚝𝚘𝚗 𝚃𝚇 .

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"BAE!"

"MARI!"

"AMAR-"

"WHAT NIGGA DAMN?"

Samiron jerked his head back and mugged me. "Ima just ignore the attitude. Can you help me with this shit?" He asked, motioning towards his black tie.

I got up from the couch and fixed his tie before he walked back into his bathroom. Todays Soovy's funeral and Samiron been real quiet all morning but I can't say that I didn't expect that from him. He's been quiet all week. He'll talk a lil' here and there but for the most part he always looks deep in thought. Shit, we both are.

As for me, I haven't been dealing with any of this shit well. It seems like every time I close my eyes I see Messiah's face telling me it's your fault, then I see Bri'on's dead body on the sidewalk.

I don't know how much more of this I can take, I feel like i'm going crazy. There's just too many issues to deal with at once and I feel so overwhelmed. And the worst part about it is feelin like you gotta go through it alone cause no ones gonna understand or relate to you. No one in the group has unintentionally set their own brother up to get shot so I know they can't relate.