Returning Back From The Dead | BTS Jeon Jungkook ff

Charter 1 - The new beginning

*Jungkook's pov*

I stared at the white coffin in front of me, where my girlfriend of 4 years lay. She died 1 month ago in a car crash, way too young. She was on her way home to our shared apartment after a full day at work when a careless driver drove into her car making the car jolt and she hit her head too hard on the window.

She lost too much blood while waiting for the ambulance and once they got there they saw her lifeless body lying there, the only thing that kept it up was the seatbelt. It was a quick death, she fainted due to the blood loss and then her soul left her body. Painless for her but it brought me more pain than I ever thought a human could possibly feel. 

Life was unfair as hell.

When I got the call my world crashed down in a second and the spark that wanted to build it up again burnt out just as fast. When her soul left her body it pulled mine with it, the only difference was that I was still alive, breathing with a beating heart. The only thing that was left was the stabbing pain in my heart, the pain that brought so many tears until there was no left. I wanted to cry and scream but I couldn't anymore, I was just numb.

I don't remember much of that day, I remember waking up next to her in the morning but what I didn't know was that it would be the last time I saw her adorable sleepy face and her warm and soft smile. I didn't know that it was going to be the last time I heard her bubbly laugh, the last time I kissed her soft lips, the last time I would look into her beautiful eyes and get lost in them.

Since that day, I've been heartbroken and alone. The apartment that we once shared now felt empty and cold. Every corner in it made me think about the memories we had shared together. Her side of the bed was cold but her smell was still lingering over her pillow. I miss having her in my arms, cuddling her every chance I got. I miss attacking her with kisses all over her face until she was laughing so much that she was begging me to stop to be able to breathe again.

The pictures on the wall of us were a constant reminder of the pain but I knew it was going to hurt more if I took them away. Her clothes were still left in our closet, taking up most of the space. I remember that I always complained that she didn't leave any room for my clothes, now I wish she would come back with a shopping bag filled with new clothes and take up even more space in the closet. She would always wear my clothes and I pretended that I hated it but in all honesty, she looked better in them than what I did.

Her white coffin was decorated with blue and purple flowers since it was her favorite color. The whole theme of the funeral was those colors, it matched the color on her dress which was lavender. I bought that dress for her at the beginning of our relationship but till this day it was her favorite. I remember the huge smile that lit up her beautiful face when I gave it to her, it was the moment I realized how much I loved her. When I took her out on a date after that I confessed my feelings and I found out that she felt the same. When all those memories popped up in my head along with the sight of the coffin, my breath started shaking, and tears blurred my vision.

Why did it have to happen to her?

I thought as I let out a loud sob that I couldn't hold back any longer. The fact that she laid inside of that wooden box made it all more real, I couldn't deny it anymore. But was it really her? Not really, only the cast her soul left behind.

I felt a light squeeze on my shoulder causing me to turn around and behind me stood Y/N's parents. They wrapped their loving arms around my body, giving me a tight hug and a shoulder to cry on. I felt their bodies slightly shaking due to crying as well, they lost a family member, their daughter.

Y/N was the love of my life, she still is even if she is not here by my side anymore. We met at a high school party and after that we were inseparable. I remember looking at her for the first time and my eyes were glued to her beauty, I had never seen any girl like her before. I tried to flirt with her but she was a hard shell to crack, after trying for weeks I finally got her to accept a date with me. I was so happy. After that everything went so fast, we went on a few more dates, I asked her to be my girlfriend which she agreed on and that's how it all started. She was my world and now when she is gone, my world is gone.