I Fell In Love With A Fag

Chapter 7: Tori

  I've never met a girl like Kiera Summers. She's so cool and effortless. Its mind blowing. And she's a nerd. I've been trying so hard to play it cool cause I don't want to scare her away. Lord only knows what would happen if she found out I was gay. Everyone who finds out scews me over. I've changed schools three times in just six months and it hurts. I thought Nadine was different, but, after finding out; she just left me and told the whole school. People started treating me like a plague. I just had to leave.

The only people that have understood me are Kurt and Alan. They found out but still they treated me as a friend. Nothing changed. If anything, we became closer. They're a place of solitude when my parents are killing me for being gay. And I'm trying. Really trying; I mean, I don't need this. Not at this stage in my rehabilitation. I'm actually starting to fall for Kurt, but, I don't know how long I'll last with this. I'm trying to change for my mum. Lord only knows tat nothing would make her happier than a straight child. It's just that rape does that to you some times. I respect the people who still want to marry and have kids, but, not me. I can't deal. Kurt's been helping me and stuff; some times, I actually remember what it feels like to be held by a guy.
Oh, Kiera Summers, what have you done to me?
  I was pulled out of my reverie by laughter. Kurt, Alan and Ki were laughing so hard.

"Hey T, did you see those guys?" Kurt asked me in between laughs. We were still watchinh the movie. I smiled. I excused myself and went to the toilet. *sigh* . I turned on the faucet and splashed water on my face. The water was ice cold. C'mon Tori. Do this for yourself. You didn't ask to be raped. You need to move on. Remember Aiden? Yeah you loved him....
Well I did; up until he swiped my V-card forcefully!
Not all of them are like that. You need to realize this...
Really? May I remind you that dad uses every opportunity to beat the crap out of mom? And still he thinks my sexuality is odd. What does he expect?
Who told you they all do that? Tori you're NEVER going to be happy being gay. Its just not you and you know it. Anybody else can be gay but not you. Deep down inside you know...

I gave up fighting my conciense. It was tiring. Being gay was solace for me after Aiden raped me. It was amazing while it lasted but it just wasn't me.

I splashed water on my face one more time before leaving the bathroom. I knew what I had to do...

So uhh I decided to make chap 7 Tori's POV. She's struggling with a lot of things. Kiera Summers being number 1 on the list. Anyway you understand. So please vote and COMMENT!! UGH!!!!!!!! Not knowing whaty readers think is becoming extremely frustrating. Its not cool and its not fair At all. Please comment. I want to know what you guys are thinking. Still luhh you tho✌ To the side is Ellie Goulding's cover of Take Me To Church by Hozier